i did have an “overthinking” episode this morning,
but i took it as a bump on “reset mode”.
i have no complaints being away from that place tho.
it has been like a mini vacation.
my room has been a getaway.
i hardly treat myself anymore.
ive been too focused on the needs of others.
what they think?
will they get mad?
will they leave me?
oh no buddy!
that is completely done.
“talk to me”
i haven’t had the urge to hit him up.
he has been acting like an asshole as of late.
there have been many contradictions on his part.
i’m sure its wrong i don’t reply,
but i really don’t give a fuck tb-perfectly-h.
remember when i got the silent treatment?
remember when i hit him up and no response?
remember when he was on his fuck shyt?
well welcome to mine pineapple.
i hope he has a coat.
it gets chilly.
just last week i asked him something and he said:
“i didn’t think i had to tell you”
…but he always wants me to check in.
whenever he asks me a question,
i need to answer.
well guess what?
i don’t have to tell you shit either.
he’ll live until i return.
i may still keep him on freeze when i do.
i haven’t decided yet.
“i don’t give a fuck”
i hear its wonderful this time of year.
lowkey: if i can maintain this “feeling” for next year,
i will accomplish more.
i need to not slink back into old habits.
they need to die.
like a painful death.