it seems to be a season of some sort.
everyone,
including myself,
is stressed out.
i’m calling it “the hall of mirrors”.
this destination seems to be somewhere on everyone’s mountans.
its like everyone is being faced with their truths right now.
the reflection might be easy to handle for some.
a quick switch up and you good.
the rest are having a hard time at who we are or becoming.
we are seeing things in our lives we never thought we would to see.
my friend left today saw just that…
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you are hungry.
you haven’t had anything to fill you up in a while.
you have gotten use to the pain.
stagnation.
nothing inspiring has come your way.
is this life?
hell is this your life?
what have you become?
you need stripping.
you just raggedy.
your life just raggedy.
everything around you just raggedy.
well how do you start over?
how do you remove yourself from this dark corner?
how do you turn cardboard box living to condominium luxury?
do you continue to beg for someone to rescue you?
or do you get up and make it happen?
well somewhere beneath the rags,
deep inside your person,
you have the key.
the key that will unlock what you are searching for.
once you keep unlocking those doors,
you will find what you are looking for.
you will rise.
your place is waiting amongst the ranks.
now tho…
you just raggedy.
hell i am too.
it may take a minute,
but once we dig deep,
we will be able to stand up and walk away.
our lives are not meant for raggedy.

lowkey: raggedy don’t mean clothes tho.

i got an interesting package from a reader i wanted to share.
one of the toughest decisions to make in life is your career.
from what you want to do after college.
what will make you happy and fulfilled.
you can spend many years in college and never use the degree you chased.
hell i know a few college grads who i’m making more money than.
…and that ain’t even a lot.
so when i got this f0xmail,
i wanted to share because i understand the struggle…
Continue reading “f0xmail: What I’ve Realized About Myself and The Career I’ve Chosen” →

we gotta be careful who we give our power to.
like seriously….
Continue reading “Power (F*cked)” →

i only left my crib to go get a haircut and do laundry.
if i could have,
i would have spent the entire weekend in my cave.
lights off.
phone off.
“leave me alone”.
i have cried,
prayed,
and slept.
not entirely in that order.
have you ever been so depressed that you didn’t know what to do?
like if your life ended at that moment,
you might actually do a cart wheel into the light.
well thats how i felt all week.
i felt like a keyshia cole album.
last week was bad.
pretty bad.
i was/am/kinda/i dunno low-key depressed…
Continue reading “The Sweetness At The Bottom of Depression” →

why does going after your dreams feel so…
overwhelming?
it makes you feel kinda insecure?
almost like you want to give up?
like why does that happen?
why is it when we are confronted with what we want,
or something we thought we knew we wanted,
(until we got all the logistics)
that we buckle?
it can feel like throwing it in the air,
running far away,
and never coming back.
our careers look easy in our minds,
but we have no idea the hard work that goes into it.
acting is hard work.
modelling is hard work.
rapping is hard work.
writing is hard work.
fashion is hard work.
blogging is hard work.
college is hard work.
careers are hard work.
everything requires some kind of sacrifice.
so i had to ask…

You thought it was gonna be easy, huh?…
Continue reading “Ask Me My Talent” →