i haven’t felt this way,
it feels good to be in control of my narrative.
to be comfortable in my fur.
i’ve always been too excited when a wolf comes into my life.
when it doesn’t work out,
or i misconstruedwhat the motives are,
i’m pulled down into the deep depths of depression. now… not so much.
so i met up with a wolf on friday…
that was my ex co worker’sstatus message.
that use to be me especially after a 4 day weekend.
going back to that place was torture.
there would be nonsense already waiting patiently in my inbox. is it wrong that i felt a moment of happiness? i was just telling someone… Continue reading “Unemployed AF”
so last night, i didn’t cancel plans with work wolf.
he was pretty excited about it.
i couldn’t end it.
i woke up with “friend zone” for work wolf.
i felt better keeping my mind fixated on him being in “that place”.
so he wanted to just walk around the city and talk. cool…
^me last night on the porch.
yesterday was one of the most chill dayssince i been down here. karaoketook the car, the wifi was not working,
and nothing was on tv.
“can i talk to the manager please?!
his name his god…
jesus or something.
yes i’ll hold.”
so i had nothing to do.
well i did do laundry and clean the house. is this what a house-bandfeels like? well it would feel better if i had the hub’s funds to go buy myself a little happy.
i was bored to tears yesterday,
see that’s the thing with fl.
you HAVE to have a car.
if not you WILL be doing a lot of walking for miles.
well on the positive,
im not dealing with that snow situation up there. thank god for that.
i did just get a call from my vixen friend, the one who works at that temp agency,
waking me up out my sleep asking me to come in for a job. im surprised it wasn’t cancelled.
i could hear the vomitrise in her throat when i told her i was in florida. im sure she’ll have a thousand jobs for me then.
lowkey:im realizing i ALWAYS need wifi and my laptop. i HAVE to update. i get a real nasty attitude when i can’t.
sheesh. i’m starting to think technology runs my life.