…and it can be scary af.
you were taught that being gay is wrong/sin/gross,
yet you don’t understand why you’re attracted to males.
it could be this attraction to the your co worker,
the trainer in your gym,
or you were in public and peeped a cutie with a nice tail.
it made you hard af and you couldn’t understand wtf was going on.
i’m hear to font you…
don’t be scared.
i’m not here to judge.
trust me when i font that i’m not like the others.
the ones who forgot what it felt like to struggle within themselves.
even though they’re out,
are still struggling to find their place within the world.
i’m definitely not them.
i’m hear to let you know that i get it.
the “back, back, front and forth“,
and not to mention the sneaking to fuck.
a lot of “the struggling” like to be reckless out here too.
why are you putting your health,
and everyone you deal with,
it can be really draining.
some people think coming out means this total freedom.
i think its a form of freedom,
but my version of freedom is:
accepting who you are
what you like
coming to terms with your own self
i don’t feel whole if someone else comes out.
it doesn’t make me feel insecure that i live discreetly.
i’m legit happy for anyone who comes out.
it’s very brave,
but that was THEIR story.
i feel like no one really cares that much anyway.
we got our own lives and those we know personally.
oh and you see that phone you got…
we also have to keep up with 7 billion other folks,
which also include celebs.
some of these situations are just fleeting moments,
which explains many might feel so empty after folks move on.
they didn’t do it for “them”.
they did for others and learned the hard way.
so i want you to understand that i’m with you.
i’m right here.
the foxhole has more than a few like you.
i want you to work on loving yourself 110%.
that’s the first part is being comfortable in your own soul.
you like males (along with vixens?)…
it’s not like you have a strong attraction to dogs or goats.
you’re attracted to another human,
with a spirit and a soul.
not to mention the print-age/tail.
i think the majority of the forests are ignorant on being gay/bi.
some are grossed by the act,
but it’s the same thing as dealing with the opposite sex.
others think that you will rape them in some alley.
i’m here to scream it from the loudest font:
SOME OF US DON’T WANT YOU BRUH.
EVEN IF YOU SEXY AF,
YOUR NASTY ASS PERSONALITY IS A HIGH KEY TURN OFF.
NO ONE WANTS TO DEAL WITH YOUR SHIT SIR.
the rest are church folks who already their own ball of contradictions and insecurities.
get your own “sins” together before you come at us crazy.
so go forth foxholer or lurker!
fully gay or attracted to both sexes.
learn to accept all those parts of you.
the rest will fall into place.
i’m starting to love every part of me.
i still care about some things,
but the rest get a heavy middle finger.
i’m not obsessed with people pleasing as i once was.
you either like me or you don’t.
i’m not for everyone that’s okay.
so i hope this helped you in some way.
i can’t wait to see your progress.