that was what karaoke said to me yesterday...
the credit card i applied for came in the mail yesterday.
i never had a credit card before.
applied a few times and got that “NOPE”.
so after paying off a few bills that were in collections recently,
i was finally approved.
when it came i felt scared tho.
un sure of myself for some reason.
not the feelings other people usually have.
i had to ask myself…
handle a credit card?…”
maybe it was people’s reactions:
“jamari you know you like to shop…”
can you give a fox a chance?
the only person who cheered me on was karaoke.
actually she was the one who inspired me to get it.
she has always been financially responsible since ive know her.
she has her condo.
set her home up with her own things.
bought a car when i was down there.
her kid has to beg for nothing.
she has always been the definition of success in my eyes.
i want that.
i want to inspire others as well.
we are gay men.
no matter what role we play,
we already ahead of the game than the straights.
we don’t have dependents.
it’s usually just us.
this is why i have money.
i don’t get paid crazy amounts like others.
i live within my means,
set up tons of apps on my devices for bills and budgets,
and TRY not go ratch when i go in a store.
you know i love the ( x smell of fresh fox swagg ).
i want my own home.
i want to be walk into a dealership and get approved for a car.
i want the “gubment” to not look at me as “one of dem”.
i want that for all the foxhole.
this is why i talk the way i do.
i gotta inspire you as well as myself.
i DESERVE better.
we DESERVE better.
why do the snow foxes get to have all the fun?
“we gon make it,
we gon make it…”
this is my fav “musical medicine” song.
that eve verse>>>> my alarm every morning…
i’ve given myself a limit of 50 dollars for 2 months until i get use to it.
slowly increasing as i go.
since my wolf is out there in this big forest lookin for me,
i’ll get my GLOW and the foxhole together until he arrives.