you can’t expect to go any further with that drawbridge up.
i can see that “closed off” body language from here.
it has made your face look so mean.
you are not open.
who hurt you?
oh its been a couple people?
well listen i been there…
a fox has been hurt and betrayed before.
i’ve been used and abused.
so i put my drawbridge up.
i put a dragon outside my castle to stop anyone from entering.
i was rude.
everything about me was stone-like.
as life went on,
and i started meeting better people,
i started to bring the drawbridge down some.
just a little.
working at the places i worked,
meeting the people i met,
it definitely couldn’t be up.
i would mess around and miss my blessings.
hell i didn’t trust work wolf.
i was waiting for the other shoe to drop.
patiently waiting for him to fuck up and ruin us so i could tell myself:
“i told you so jamari!”
is that even mentally healthy?
i don’t want to live like that.
you can lower your drawbridge,
i’m learning to do the same as well.
you just can’t let just anyone into your kingdom.
see as much as we are all different,
“hurt” still feels the same for everyone.
betrayal and a broken heart can lay you out.
the problem is when don’t allow ourselves time to heal.
we block others from really coming inside us.
its like we want these amazing relationships,
with these fine ass counterparts,
but we’re way too damaged to even allow anything to come into our lives.
so try being nice for a change.
i know i have problems doing that “smiling” thing too.
be interested in other people.
try doing something selfless.
oh and everyone is not the “enemy”.
some people are just like you.
guarded and waiting for someone to trust again.
it can happen.
just try lowering your drawbridge a little.