things were so rough and emotionally draining these last few weeks,
i had this brief moment of a suicidal thought.
i was in a mindset of…
Why is it all the things I want are so difficult to achieve?
from males i’ve desired to the life i’ve been fighting for,
it all seemed like it was a waste of time for that moment.
ever since i started going to therapy,
i’ve been learning to start changing those thoughts into something better.
azealia banks has everyone concerned today.
she put this in her ig stories…
this year has been a real shit show.
the things we all wanted to achieve got cut or put on hold.
some of us saw who is there for us and who was on “fake ass pineapples/bitches“.
those we think are fake ass pineapples/bitches are struggling as well.
We all dealing with something,
one way or the other.
this is just the reality of 2020.
it’s a really fucked up year.
i understand where azealia is coming from and i hope she can get some help.
she is due for therapy because she has been struggling for quite some time.
my heart goes out to her and anyone else who is going through it.
one tip i have:
Take a break from everything when you’re feeling down
i’m learning the energy on social media can be really toxic.
people are also fuckin’ toxic as well,
especially THOSE YOU KNOW on social media.
i literally put all my devices on DND so i literally have to manually check my phone.
ima keep it on DND until further notice,
all those dings and dongs are triggering and make you a slave to always checking.
this week has been weird so i stayed in bed,
turned on moesha,
and binged that until i was over it.
it kept me in a good mood and i noticed i was manifesting better.
i tend to manifest when my energy is at a high.
so the name of the game is:
Protect your peace,
please don’t be scared to reach out to anyone if you need help.
sending azealia love and hopes she is able to find her peace.
lowkey: one of the foxholers told me yesterday…
you’re a bad ass bottom.
fuck these haters”
…and i really needed that message to remind me of who i am.