i’ve had it.
i’ve simply had it.
so i wanted to keep this under wraps until it came through.
i was so excited about it,
but i wanted to chill until it was set in stone.
2 weeks ago,
i had a big interview with a big sports agency.
it would have been working close with the new yawk sports teams.
you guessed it?…
baller wolves every and all day.
i ended up having 4 interviews with this company.
it started with a skype interview.
in person interview with the assistants to the svp and ceo.
the big boss of human resources.
couldn’t tell if i wowed him.
the svp to the department i’d work closely with.
wowed him with all of my experience.
i was pretty sure i had it in the bag.
well after a week of waiting,
i got the call that they were moving in another direction.
“it wasn’t you because you were a very strong candidate.
they went with someone who had a little more experience.
you got great reviews from both the big boss and the svp.
i want to help you find something within the company.
if you look on the website and come across anything,
send it to me so i can be your recommendation.”
i also interviewed with a private gym.
i wanted that one more actually.
it was more laid back and it was doing admin.
the schedule was perfect.
10am to 7pm.
it was also a few stops away from my crib.
the vixen i interviewed with loved my resume and experience.
she led me on like i got the job.
i loved your resume and loved you.
i’m so interested in having you on board.
i’m just waiting for our client to approve this request.
i will keep you updated as this goes.”
i haven’t heard anything from her since.
so i focused on the sports agency gig.
not to mention i was denied for google adsense today.
so i have no job prospects anymore,
sent out a hundreds of resumes to no responses,
my unemployment is on it’s last month.
i’m trying to fight the negative thoughts the best way i can.
it’s not easy.
lowkey: i feel like i’m trapped in a cage in my own body.
i want to scream,
but i can’t.
it is the weirdest feeling.