all things must come to an end.
it can be really hard to deal with,
especially when you are emotionally attached.
well in one quick conversation,
it all came to an end with work wolf today..
so when i got to work today,
work wolf was waiting for the elevator.
when he saw me,
his eyes instantly lit up and he had a big smile on his face.
i gave him dap and we started talking in the elevator.
he mentioned nothing about yesterday.
i was embarrassed with my behavior.
i also prayed he didn’t ask me why i didn’t respond to the text.
throughout the day,
we texted off and on.
i kept my responses pretty light.
at mid afternoon,
he texted me this:
“you want to stop by urban outfitters after work?
i need your opinion on this fit i’m coppin.”
i had nothing to do so i said i would go.
hell after yesterday,
and the comments from the last entry,
i thought he banished my existence.
“you know you mad cool.
honestly you like the only nigga i talk to the most these days.
next to these hoes,
and my fam,
you the only nigga i really text.
i don’t have a lot of friends but i consider you to be one”
he also admitted he was pissed off i questioned his trust yesterday.
he said he would “never betray me”.
in a nutshell:
he appreciates my friendship.
so i’m “friend zoned”?
i guess that was the end of that right there.
here i am lustin’ over him and he sees me as a potential friend.
i could ruin a friendship with the way i was acting.
i felt bad.
i still feel bad.
i had a “feeling”,
but i guess i misinterpreted “friendship” with “wanting more”.
well if i can’t have him in that way,
i’m satisfied in his friendship.
i’m gonna do myself a favor and cross “work wolf” off the list.
lowkey: is it bad i feel disappointed somewhat?