going to the doctor is scary

i’m scared of the doctors.
my parents dying of cancers put that fear in me.
i’ve went and had physicals,
but i was shook waiting for the results.
when i had that hiv scare a few years back,
i was a hot ass mess when it came to getting tested.
thank God it came back clean.
lately,
i haven’t been myself…

ever since last week,
i have had these interesting cramps within the stomach.
i’ve felt this wave of nausea as well.
the dull pain has since landed in the in the middle of my chest,
but under my rib cage.
i made the mistake of looking up my symptoms.
foxhole,
don’t EVER research your symptoms.
i landed on:

COLON CANCER

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the weird part is that i have an appetite.
i’m eating without throwing up at all.
there is no diarrhea or anyhing of that nature.
i just feel like this wave of sick throughout the day.
so i’m “sick-ish” but not the full she-bang.

i spoke to a medical foxholer today and they suggested it might be acid reflux.
they said lighten on the heavy for a little while.
if i don’t feel any refief soon,
i’m gonna head to an urgent care on the asap.
we as males need to stop being so scared of going to the doctor.
sure,
we can work out to make sure our physical looks tight,
but…

What happens when there is some real shit going on inside you?

something that will lay you out indefinitely.
i plan on scheduling my annual physical this week.
you should too.

lowkey: i don’t feel stressed,
but i might be.
stress is the #1 killer.

Author: jamari fox

the fox invited to the blogging table.

14 thoughts on “going to the doctor is scary

  1. i used to play “Web Dr’ with myself and diagnosed my own death before . only to go the doctor and find it wasnt as serious as i thought I caused some unnecessary stress and anxiety. Moral of the story…go to the dr.

  2. Your fears are justified. My father passed away from pancreatic cancer, so my brothers and I have to watch ourselves carefully. Sadly, my second oldest brother (I have three) was diagnosed with colon cancer. I’d already had my first colonoscopy a few years back, with the results coming back negative, but it is almost time again for another. Aside from my doctor telling me that it can sometimes skip a generation, it’s somewhat scary nonetheless.

  3. Jamari Fox, I am with you about fear over going to the doctor, but please don’t let Web MD stress you out. I have looked on there and self-diagnosed every disease known to man, only to go in for my check-ups and learn that, thankfully, things are mostly OK. In terms of that nausea, stomach pain, etc., it very well could be acid reflux/GERD.

    A few times I thought I was having heart attacks, and even went to the emergency room (as have friends) only to learn that the EKG was fine but the acid response was so strong that the heart burn felt like a massive heart attack. I am not sure if it’s something in the US food system or your specific diet, but a lot of people are getting it. I avoid those pills if I can, and just alter my diet.

    Things to cut back on: tomatoes and tomato sauce/paste, onions and garlic, raisins, lemons and any acidic and citrus fruits, any kinds of acid, coffee, any and all processed foods, all fried foods, very fatty meats, store-bought breads, and beans (because of the gas, though they are otherwise good for you), etc.

    Better for you if you have acid reflux: bananas, moderate ginger, oatmeal, green vegetables and root vegetables, salads (in general, without tomatoes), melons (so long as they’re thoroughly washed, etc.), parsley (always good for the stomach), fennel, skinless chicken and turkey, and many kinds of seafood (but not fried), Also, if you can, def get a colonoscopy. They can be life savers.

    1. ^thank you for this advice tlt.
      i’m gonna take your advice about what foods to cut down/out for a while.
      i may end up going to the doctor tomorrow.

  4. Going to the doctors can be very frightening. Recently I went ro the doctor because I while I was soaking my feet I discovered a lump in my foot. Jamari when I tell you I spazzed out, I spazzed out. Of course I went and googled. I pretty much convinced myself it was cancerous. Only to find out it was a non cancerous ganglion cyst and that I had nothing to worry about. Whewww. Anyway moral of the story is if anything is out of place go get it looked at.

  5. If you go, schedule an appointment with your doctor or a general practitioner. Don’t go to urgent care unless you ABSOLUTELY need to. Just saying that they will have you waiting there for hours if it ain’t an “about to die right now” case. I know when I did a brief stint in Emergency we had ppl there for a long time cause we had to take more serious cases first, even if they had just came in.

    Hope you feel better J.

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