hey Jamari,I been lurking your blog for a while now. And I’m happy to be able to see other black gay men online that seem to be in to each other. Out here in Cali it’s so hard for a black man seeking another black men It seems like black men want nothing to do w/ each other out here (SF, Cali) and will look right past each other to chase down a white or Asian guy. I’m not judging anyone’s preference, but I believe there’s strong element of self-loathing when it comes to these brothas. I just finished my freshman year at SF State and it was a nightmare. I’m originally from the south and was looking to connect w/ other like-minded black gay men like myself but their heads are so far up any non-black man’s ass it’s pathetic. And what’s funny is I overhear conversations between these “brothas” and their friends about how white men won’t pay them any mind…they claim they’re being sexually discriminated against, but they’re doing the EXACT same thing to guys who share the same complexion and features as them. I dunno about other gay black men, but I LOVE other black men and find us incredibly sexy and charming. I’ve tried developing friendships w/ other black gays in SF/Castro area and they all look at me funny or roll their eyes when I try and engage them conversation. Even on a friendship tip, I’ve had these “brothas” tell me they prefer to “chill” w/ Asian or white guys in their inner circle. The self-hate among these men is so unnerving, it’s makes me utterly ashamed to be a black man out here. Because these men have absolutely no self-respect or pride in their own race. They will run up behind anything that looks lighter than them. Please tell me I’m not alone,
I feel like I’m all alone out here…
you are definitely not alone.
its not even the gays.
i know many straights who went over to cali and got the surprise of their lives.
black wolves don’t date the coloreds out there.
if you ain’t light or damn near white,
you are pretty much out of luck.
shame because most of those cali wolves be fine as hell.
but fine as hell.
these two come to mind:
look at chris brown.
i’m sure when he lived in that “country road” down in va,
i’m sure he happily dated black vixens.
i mean he had no choice.
now that he has moved to cali,
and became some kind of compton hood rat,
he is suddenly he is checking “light skin/other” for his boxes.
“electrical appliance” for his baby mama.
he don’t even look at a black vixen for more than for a second.
remember when he had a crush on ciara?
yeah those days are gone.
hell this one who i lusted after:
…doesn’t seem to have any black vixens in his latest productions.
whats up with that?
from what i heard through the fox-vine,
you may not want most of the attentionistos of cali.
you know the ones on instagram.
“models” is what they call em.
some of the ones who are straight.
a majority are creepin’ with older white foxes who paying bills.
cali ain’t cheap at all,
yet they in expensive cars and clothes?
the others are simply just raised that way.
“color struck” has been passed down from generation to generation.
cali is not like new yawk.
you will find a lot of everything out in the concrete forest.
even in new yawk,
when it comes to corporate,
you will find color struck negros ready to suck white pipe for promotion.
the biggest coons wear suits out here.
you don’t want anyone who don’t want you.
i say keep doing you and the right one will come along.
“blah blah blah” i know,
but you been searching and what has happened?
maybe its time to pack up and move to a more “accepting” state?
a place where “color struck” negros are the minority?
head over north or even down south?
no reason to stay someplace if you aren’t being fulfilled.
i’m sorry its not working out for you out there.
i wish nothing but the best for you and your future endeavors.
good luck and keep me posted!
lowkey: i don’t think cali is ready for my new yawk mouth.
i would be ready to curse someone the fuck out with the bs.
i don’t give a fuck who you are.
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