i don’t think we fully understand how serious addiction is.
some of us can relate to one (or more) of those things on that list.
i can name a few that i’ve indulged in.
A majority of gay males are addicted to sex.
is a way to feel seen and loved since that is extremely hard to find in this life.
some of us don’t look at other males as people,
but as conquests or something to worship.
some males want to sexually dominate the type of males that bullied them.
using our sexuality to control other males tends to be exhilarating.
its the only time many of us can feel in control of our lives tbh.
it’s the only time we actually feel “love” for 15-20 minutes.
i watched a video on “soft white underbelly” about a guy named philip.
he is a sex addict in la who has had sex with over 900 males,
the BBC being his preference…
this made me cry.
This is the story of many males in the life and we don’t even realize it.
The sex parties
Sticking dicks in gloryholes
Leaving home to fuck random males every (other) night
Scrolling through apps for our next smash.
Being in relationships but still wanting it to be open to fuck other males.
even during the intense lockdowns of the pandemic,
you could see the intense withdrawals from the sex addictions.
i can believe black males would fuck him.
black males fuck anything with a fat ass.
you see the downtrodden white vixens they fuck on the low.
some black males act bougie about who they’ll smash…
But when a male wants to bust a nut,
he’ll stick his dick in any hole that’s available to him.
i keep telling vixens this and they don’t even understand it.
he didn’t like or love you to fuck the shit outta you.
he was horny and you were available.
just look at the videos of some of the users,
straight and gay,
and watch their sex partners.
philip’s movements and happiness about it all are what disturbed me.
he has this child-like quality like he hasn’t grown up due to all the abuse he faced.
all he knows is sex.
his snapback and black males loving it so much were really telling to me.
his self-esteem is based on how males see him sexually.
he was groomed at a young age and didn’t have a healthy way to express himself.
he started at 14.
i don’t even think he feels he has a problem.
it’s like he is in his own movie,
I really would like to have a discussion about this video with the foxhole.
i think it’s really important.
lowkey: i am really sad how he said he was gifted as a kid (@34:15).
he said he was depressed and was a lost soul,
despite having good grades and being raised right.