i can understand why a lot of people are hesitant about therapy.
they make you unpack all the bags you have been carrying with you for years.
my new therapist has had me in a royal funk this last week and a half.
she is pretty intense.
i’ve felt intense sadness,
suicidal thoughts,
acceptance,
and indifference all in one neat package.
it all started with us talking about an incident i was having the week before last.
she decided to dig deeper in a bag that i’ve kept locked tightly.
well…

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when my mind is set on something,
i get to OD obsessing about it.
for the last few weeks,
i’ve been into the idea of traveling heavy.
watching and sleeping to videos about packing suitcases.
it was really peaceful to me tbh.
last week,
my friend randomly hit me up and said…

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i will never question The Universe and why things happen the way they do.
there is always a reason.
last night,
i felt like i was coming down with a cold or something.
my nose was getting stuffy and my head was starting to detach.
i had to wonder if i caught the rona after going to get a cut and taking off my mask.
today…

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like animals in the wild,
everyone’s life has a moment of hibernation.
even when it’s a season of partying and celebrating,
YOU might just want to lay in bed and binge tv shows all day.
sometimes,
life gets boring.
you have no social life,
in the middle of a transition,
no one is fuckin’ you or wit you,
and you’re literally not in the mood for any bullshit.
these days,
with no job and in a pandemic with weird violent energy happening outside…

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one of my most favorite celebs i’ve ever met was charity from the show,
greenleaf.
deborah joy winans and i talked for close 2 hours.
she is so dope and joy (see what i did there) to speak to.
you would have thought we knew each other for years.
so much so,
we followed each other on my personal social media.
i’m a very warm and friendly person so this is why i took a lot of front desk jobs.
she was one of the many celebs that i met at my last job.
surprisingly,
i’ve met kenya moore and she was really friendly to me.
that was 2 years ago and i never posted about it.
even with a platform like mine,
i’ve kept all my celeb encounters super lowkey.
i move differently but i think it all stems from how i grew up tbh.
foxhole:

I haven’t even begun to crack open my past back in Barbados…

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i live in new yawk,
but mentally,
i’ve been in another country at a wellness retreat.
when i shut down my personal social media accounts,
the intent was to come back once i was healed.
that means work on this therapy shit hardbody.
foxhole,
i can say i’m well on my way to being healed and reclaiming my time.
i feel like serena van der woodson coming back to ny in the first episode of og gossip girl.

on my final purge today,
on a brand new moon,
my phone’s contact list lost some serious weight.
that hoe is skinny af.
the way i see things now is this…

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