“It’s not my fault”.

that is what i said after a conversation with my cousin today.
healing can come in many ways unexpectedly.
sometimes,
we need to go back and really research our family tree.
we will find out what happened to us and how it started.
after hearing about how trauma started in my family,
i felt like i found a key and opened the doors to narnia in my attic.
many of my family members have one thing in common…

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this was sitting on my spirit and i was urged to font this.
from the desk of the foxhole.

We have to stop getting mad because people don’t agree with us.

People will not like us because we are black.
People will not like us because we are gay.
People will not like us because we are trans.
People will not like us because we are non-binary.
People will not like us because we are people.

when it comes to sexuality or gender…

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“When you keep meeting the same male over and over,
they are all trying to teach you something.”

the a-ha moment.
someone said that to me over the weekend and it was profound.
it felt like it cleared my sinuses and put me in another timeline.
after i sat and thought about it,
all of those wolves that broke me all had the same scent…

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i have been having legit nightmares lately.
it could be something i started doing tho.
last night,
i dreamt i was in an interesting car crash…

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finding a partner feels like going to war these days.
i admire those who found one with no issues.
keeping them after you get them is a whole other issue.
having pretty muscles or a rotund tail means nada nowadays.
the “you need to be willing to top and bottom” means nothing either.
that is what we sell to people in hopes of being chosen.
it’s like a job interview and how we lie to get the job.

You gotta be fully prepared to do battle.

trying to find someone to love can be so demoralizing…

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miscommunication.
when i sat and thought about it yesterday,
 many of my failed relationships ended due to miscommunication.
i have met some idiots who had to go because they weren’t good for me.
like,
my sister for instance.
i have tried to communicate with her many times about our issues.
after the 10th issue with her doing the same shit,
i realized there is no fixing our relationship so i had to peace out.

How many of our family members or close friends have we stopped speaking to because something happened and no one decided to talk?

we lie and create excuses to justify not speaking to them.
the truth is it could have been resolved if both parties had a conversation.
so you know i had my psychotic meltdown the other day?
i haven’t been speaking to my family for the last 2 months and…

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