i fonted on twitter the other day:

“I’ve been wasting my handsome-ness on dusties.”

i meant that in the most non-conceited way possible.
i was actually taking some self inventory of myself,
tbh.
it’s true was true tho.

Hi.
I’m Jamari Fox and I’m a fear based,
self sabotaging,
and insecure fox.
Nice to meet you.
Where is the bathroom?

no seriously,
i have to pee.
i realized it’s all my fault and i’m glad i’m able to recognize that…

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“i don’t know what i want to do with my life.”
“let me scroll twitter for a while again…”
“maybe i should jack off again.
i mean,
shit,
i’ve done it like 5 times so far…”
“i wonder what he is doing?
does he even still think about me anymore?”
“i should be over him,
but i can’t seem to get him off my mind.”
“do i want a job or a career?”
“what would i even do in this new world of wfh these days?”
“i’m feeling scared for the future,
but i’m still trying to stay optimistic.”
“are we sure unemployment is extended?”
“let me go watch a tv show or something…”

that was me over-thinking in the span of 10 minutes just now.
i had to get tf up and write this entry.
you know what i’ve realized during this social isolation?…

Continue reading “i will not fall into your trap satan (you will not lure me into the pits of over-thinking hell)” →

mi had another meltdown last night.
mi is a family member of mine i have written about before.
her aunt called me and broke the news this afternoon.
she had to be put into an institution again,
only this time,
she will be in there for 2 months apparently…

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“Pull the U-haul around.”

even though i was getting help,
it has been a long day.
it’s been raining on and off so it really set the mood for packing.
it was the perfect day to say goodbye…

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i’ve noticed when i’m under extreme stress,
my skin takes a humongous turn for the worst.
i end up losing tremendous amounts of weight due to depression and anxiety.
my skin sags,
i break out,
and every line in my face becomes prominent.
unfortunately,
i wasn’t born with perfect skin and it’s been an upward battle since my teens.
as of late,
especially during the rona,
i’ve been on my skincare game really heavy.
i wanted to share a “before and after” with the foxhole.
one of my bffs,
pose,
sent me a picture of when we went to the rihanna concert back in 2016.
this was during a stressful job and “the work wolf era” when it got bad…
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so i’m a cancer sun,
my moon sign is in virgo,
and i’m an aquarius rising.
that leads for some fun stuff up inside me:

cancer moon – emotional
virgo sun – critical of self
aquarius rising – detached; i come off chill and together

with all of that definitely comes with struggle.
i don’t know if anyone has been feeling this way but…

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