…i truly am.
i was thinking about you today.
i think about you a lot actually.
thinking about how much i really liked you,
but i fucked it all up.
i’m so damn awkward when i’m around someone i’m really feelin’.
there was a time you were trying to get at me,
but i acted standoffish.
i mean you fumbled the bag too,
but i’ll get into that after i font my peace.
now it wasn’t that i was standoffish…

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i’m not really interested in this whole kanye west debacle.
he always seems to have these “moments” when something of his is about to drop.
like i said on twitter:

When he is being hauled off to the mental,
call me.

for someone like him,
he needs to be on meds for his outbursts.
if he isn’t taking his meds,
this is the outcome that will happen all the time.
how do i know?
well i want to be completely transparent with the foxhole tonight.
we share so much with each other,
but i want to lay something on the table…

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whew.
to think,
i woke up on this sunday and was looking at sermons.
codys got up and was filled with venom.
we’re clearly in two different worlds.
foxholers always ask me:

Why don’t I ever block people like this from coming to the foxhole?

why?
they have a right to their opinion on me.
i’ll send them to the cage of atonement when they start making no sense.
so lets have a teachable moment on this sunday foxhole!
i believe in turning lemons to lemonade.

lets break down codys comment…

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facts.
one of my favorite words to say.
i’m someone who makes some decisions or conclusions based off emotions.
i’m a raging cancer and at times,
i’m not afraid to use it.
that’s the problem tho…

What are the facts?

the pretty vixen taught me something i always bypass in my life.
i might be late af,
but i’m always down to sharing with the foxhole…

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…boom.
when i wake up in the morning,
the first thing i do is scroll my twitter.
i always tell folks that twitter is the best news source.
^that tweet was the first thing i saw this morning.
it led to these tweets…
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“You got to hold on little longer than you think you can, cause there is good shit working its way to you that you don’t even know about.” – poussey, season 7, orange is the new black

as much as we can do the right thing,
stay on the straight and narrow,
be good to people,
and cross the street without jay walking,
we might not get our happy endings.
yesterday,
i decided to finish the entire last season of “orange is the new black“.
i started it when it first dropped,
but during that time of my life,
i was really depressed over work wolf and had no urge to do the things i loved.
the finale of that show,
where we saw endings and beginnings with all the characters,
reminded me of something…

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