i like to remind folks:

“You will wake up and find closure on YOUR time.”

everyone loves to tell you when you should move on,
but YOU have to come to that conclusion on your own.
this is why when your friends step back.
it’s not to make you feel alone but they need you to see it for it is.
that was me with a wolf that i was really interested in all of last year.
he was so sexy to me for whatever reason.
i started to passively hope he would see “me” as i saw “him”.
as i laid in that bed last week because of all the pain i was in,
 this random thought came in my head…

Continue reading “only you can wake TF up (no one else can snap you out of it)” →

foxhole:

How the heck are ya?

i know we have a lot to catch up on,
but let’s start with i’ve missed everyone and all that cutesy mushy stuff.

let’s get into what i did last week…

Continue reading “4.12.21” →

foxhole,
this weekend has been legit hell for me.
imagine it being good friday and shit wasn’t good.
i had book club stuff to do,
edits to the podcast,
and i had to write some entries.
it seemed God had other plans for me and it wasn’t good…

Continue reading “4.3.21” →

insecurity makes us create stories as explanations.
when we are insecure about something,
we try to throw others off the scent with an elaborate tale.
it never worked because it always comes back to bite you in both cheeks.
your old tales have a way of catching up with your new ones.
when i was insecure about certain things,
i’d explain myself in a way that i thought would make me look good.
in actuality,
it brought more guilt down on my head.
the entry i wrote yesterday about being married/having kids led a foxholer to ask me this:

“Jamari, it would be great to create a post on how to respond to these unwelcomed dating inquiries and hear how others would respond.”

and i have just the response for everyone that works for me…

Continue reading “how to respond when someone thinks you’re gay af for not being married or having kids” →

everywhere i turn,
it’s all about the vaccine.
it’s on the news,
my notification center,
and in my everyday conversations.
we won’t even be able to go anywhere without a rona passport out here.

( x read about it here )
it’s beginning to feel like a cult or movie.
folks that i know are bragging about getting the first shot.

“Yeah,
I got my first shot.
I feel a little sick,
and my arm is about to fall off,
but I’m excited to get back outside again.”

and see that is the issue i’m having…

Continue reading “to get the vaccine or don’t get the vaccine, that is the question?” →

thank you to all the foxhole who sent me blessings these last few days.
i woke up today and saw so much love in my cash app and paypal.
ya’ll…
you are amazing.
i’ll make sure to treat myself to a big lunch and dinner next week.
love ya.