a couple of months ago,
the pretty vixen and i got into an argument.
it was over this wolf (jackal?) of interest.
she said that after all he has done in her eyes,
he wasn’t a standup type of dude.
He is a good guy!
He is just misunderstood!
You are being too harsh on him!”
now the pretty vixen is always right in judging folk’s characters,
but i was so into this dude type heavy that i wanted her to be wrong.
it wasn’t until i sat down and got introspective,
i realized he wasn’t shit and was treating me like i was the same.
i was on high-level “pick-me”.
i’ve seen this happen with other gays when it comes to other males.
some have even done it on the foxhole with attentionisitos and onlyfans stars.
it literally comes off like…
PLEASE PICK ME!”
…with your hands up at full stretch.
you hope that by defending their honor,
they will pick you.
the goal is to get some dick or even get in a relationship.
Did you get the dick tho?
Did they send you a DM saying thank you?
Did you get put onto the VIP list for their next event?
i did it before with other wolves besides the last one.
there was something in me that wanted to prove i “wasn’t like the messy gays“.
i’m being transparent.
it was this validation i was seeking to prove that i was “different” and trustworthy.
i was being as messy as the others that i didn’t want to be associated with.
the crazy part?
All of them aren’t in my life any longer.
did all that pick-me behavior to be an afterthought.
you get to pick your L jamari.
pick a good one!
none of the “pick-me” behavior will get you closer to getting the dick in your mouth.
ruining your own reputation with other people doesn’t win his affections.
even with celebrities that we love so much.
i’ve seen people cuss someone out stink for beyonce who won’t even like their shit on socials.
nicki minaj isn’t in your dms thanking you for being a loyal barb.
being a pick-me means we out here doing free work in hopes of getting a shot.
You are merely a disposable henchman.
that’s simply the basis of it all.
it looks pathetic af.
lowkey: pick-me behavior isn’t just in relationships.
Pick-me to hang with the cool kids!
Pick-me to be the only black person at work!
Pick-me with selling out other blacks folks to the white folks!
Pick-me with to be loved more by Mom and Dad!
Pick-me to love black shit to attend the cookout!
Pick-me in outing other males (or vixens) for straight approval!