jamari fox is a perfectionist.
i want to make sure i know what i’m doing and i’m good at it.
the thing i hate is being lost or confused about work.
that makes me feel stupid.
i’m gonna be honest…
so i’m learning a lot of new stuff at the new job.
i’m using new programs and a whole new way to do things.
it’s a little overwhelming because it’s a lot to take in.
and i want to learn,
but i don’t want to mess up.
a big deal who has spoken highly of me
those who want to see me fail from my past
it feels like pressure.
pressure to not be a “disappointment” or a “failure”.
everyone has to learn before they conquer something.
we have to learn:
how to deal with others
ride a bike
drive a car
everything has to be learned.
i keep thinking back about all the things i had to learn,
especially when it came to jobs.
it was always intimidating,
but i always managed to figure it out.
i feel like i have to be my best self.
maybe that’s what is bothering me tonight?
i need to change my mindset so i can calm down.