The Perfectionist That is “I” Who Is “Me”

635825456061428736-1173366822_tumblr_myumfy6umc1qbycdbo1_1280-imgopt1000x70jamari fox is a perfectionist.
i am.
i want to make sure i know what i’m doing and i’m good at it.
the thing i hate is being lost or confused about work.
that makes me feel stupid.
i’m gonna be honest

so i’m learning a lot of new stuff at the new job.
i’m using new programs and a whole new way to do things.
it’s a little overwhelming because it’s a lot to take in.
it’s exciting,
and i want to learn,
but i don’t want to mess up.
i have:

a big deal who has spoken highly of me
those who want to see me fail from my past

it feels like pressure.
pressure to not be a “disappointment” or a “failure”.

everyone has to learn before they conquer something.
we have to learn:

jobs
how to deal with others
ride a bike
drive a car
taking dick

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everything has to be learned.
i keep thinking back about all the things i had to learn,
especially when it came to jobs.
it was always intimidating,
but i always managed to figure it out.
i feel like i have to be my best self.
maybe that’s what is bothering me tonight?
i need to change my mindset so i can calm down.

Author: jamari fox

the fox invited to the blogging table.

9 thoughts on “The Perfectionist That is “I” Who Is “Me”

  1. Relax. It takes some time for new things to become familiar. You will look back months from now and wonder what were you so worried about

      1. Things you have to learn : Taking Dick😂

        Well at least you still have a sense of humor.

        Just like with taking a dick,take some deep breaths and try to relax.You know what happens when you tense up😀

      2. I’m with Tony, and try to avoid falling into the trap of thinking about your past situation. It’s done and over with now. We’re in the present, whether they judge you or not is none of your concern, just focus on what’s in front of you and doing your best. Remember, you’re not there by accident, the CEO didn’t just pick some random person off the street for his company, he’s not stupid, he saw something in you and believed in you. You need to believe in yourself *corny much?*

        YOU. CAN. DO. THIS.

        I’m not a Taylor Swift fan or a Mariah fan but they both said it best. Shake it OFF!

        You got this! 🙂

  2. Don’t worry yourself it takes time to learn new things and skills. Maybe time asking can you come in earlier or stay later to learn what you have to to get a better grasp. You got this.

  3. It’s that same thing for me, I’m working 2 jobs with no days off. I’m in training at my second job and we go through huge textbooks in a couple of hours. I almost had a nervous break down in the bathroom the other day. But the crazy part is, I’m really surprised at that fact that I was able to conquer this. Remember a diamond is created under pressure… It’s easier said than done, but appreciate it. It’s molding you into the leader your meant to be. If you make a mistake, don’t beat yourself up, just keep pushing. YOU GOT THIS!

  4. J- That uneasy feeling you have that you don’t really know what you are doing is called growth and its a good thing. In this new season, maybe you should try a new mindset. In my experience, the difference between a good employee and a bad one is not that one executes perfectly and the other doesn’t. The difference is that one cares enough to keep trying and the other doesn’t give a fuck. Show me someone who works hard, is eager to learn and seeks out the criticism that will make him better and I will show you someone worth promoting. On the other hand, I have laid off many people who thought that 10 years’ experience and the same year of experience 10 times were the same thing. If you do a job at which you can attain perfection and then just repeat over and over, you do a job that will be replaced by a computer before you are ready to retire.

    Continued Blessing Jamari. May you never find perfection so that you never stop pursuing it.

    1. ^jay…

      i read his comment at my desk and it made me feel so much better.
      it made me calm down and just look at the job at hand.
      even though I was confused,
      I asked for help and so many people came to my rescue.
      thank you for taking the time to leave this comment.
      everyone left such great comments,
      but this one reassured me to stop being a perfectionist.
      im going to try it in all areas of my life.

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