i didn’t ask to foster to a puppy.
i never liked the idea because i know me.
i’ll get close to an animal,
bond with it,
love it,
and train it only to then let it gotta go to someone else.
living here has been heavy on impulses with light chaos tbh,
so this puppy has been my peace.
i had the option to adopt and even though its a few hundred,
it’s not on my budget especially with the apartment deadline over my head.
well apparently in a message today…

black bomber jacket
black jeans
birkenstock loafers

these ones for reference:

Foxhole,
he looked mixed but he could have been white.
he didn’t look like a rican and dominican wolf i was use to in the new yawk forest.
either way,
i don’t know what TF he was but he was fine.
i took a random outing to TJ maxx with the person i stay with.
when i was looking around the store,
he was in the bedding section with who i assumed was his vixen.
i was looking for the men’s section because i needed socks.
while i got distracted by the many pairs of jeans they had in that store,
i noticed he was by himself and closer to where i was.

…but no,
okay,
wait…

i’m so annoyed at this story.

when chappell roan first started,
i was really into her first album.
it is a fuckin’ masterpiece.

pink pony club.
coffee.
casual.
my kink is karma.
“good luck, babe” is definitely on my life soundtrack.

i respected her story too about being overlooked,
dropped,
then coming back like:

“watch this.”

i love a good underdog moment.
somewhere along the way tho,
something started being sus with her.
i couldn’t figure it out first,
but she started to feel…
off.

the interviews
the tension with reporters
the drag makeup felt more like geisha makeup
the “don’t look at me for politics” after speaking on politics
the alleged uncle who is a republican in missouri

it started to feel less underdog and more “karen”.
i started wondering why wasn’t she more humble after being poor and overlooked.
well after her ( x recent antics ),
i guess the public is starting to get sick of her.
it turns out that chappell might actually be wealthy AF…

i learned the hard way when everything came to ahead.

some people internalize
they’re ultra sensitive
they build stories in silence and then move like they’re facts

under stress,
it can get chaotic.
while i have done the same in past situations,
i found help so i could understand my crazy.
monday and tuesday were an absolute mess.
we had our first shared space fight,
which revealed a lot about each other.

i move on structure and clear communication
they move on impulses and emotions

it reminded me of my grandmother and it triggered me heavy.
after it blew up,
we made up,
but the worst thing happened the next day…

ugh!
i hate when you discover someone and you find out they’re trash.
alleged trash,
but you can be the judge.
that being fonted:

i’m bout tired of some of these people letting their intrusive thoughts win.

…but i guess its good they do it so we can either ignore or boycott.
so remember i ( x posted about person the other day ).
his name isn’t “the foot demon” as i assumed his parent’s named him,
but it’s actually noah aka @noahgeez00.
well one of the F-BI showed me his alleged racist DM to a black creator and well…

you know what i don’t like about some people who REALLY stan for someone?

they are okay with people looking crazy.

..and when you address the obvious crazy,
they want to tell or font you about some fuckin’ record sales or pocket watching.

who gives AF if this person is selling more than ______?
like,
what are we talking or fonting about?
if you can’t be honest about the dumb shit someone you stan for does:

you are the problem and they will benefit without you.

that being fonted: i’m tired of this coddling of britney spears.
it is getting out of control.
she was just ( x arrested for driving drunk ),
which seems to her latest thing on her “too far gone; no hopes of a comeback” tour.
you know who i blame the most?…