today is a tough day.
it’s an emotionally tough day.
when it comes to therapy,
i think many people have the wrong idea about it.
especially some black folks,
have a fear of really opening up and revealing their feelings.
males are taught that showing emotions is “weak” and “feminine“.
gay males are taught something is wrong with us o be like “insert male figure in life here“.
I have very limited males I’ve looked up to
maybe my uncle,
but i was intimated of him because he came off cold af.
yesterday’s therapy session really conjured up a shit ton of emotions for me…
i could not wait to get to therapy yesterday.
some therapy sessions are just venting,
but when i find out something about myself,
i get excited that i want to share it.
after i unloaded about yesterday’s entry,
i wanted to share a technique he did that really helped…
r&b creates magic within me.
it can make me happy,
or heal my broken heart.
when my soul is aching,
a good r&b mix-tape can do just that.
i’ve been feeling really out of it lately,
but my soul urged me to do something i haven’t done in a while…
i just had something happen in therapy that i have to share.
before he called,
i was filled with anxiety and doubt.
there were so many things going on in my mind.
after the call,
i feel lighter and more relieved.
so it involved two chairs… Continue reading “i need to do me better (two chairs; one fox)”
Graphic – Yuri Shwedoff
“Demons are like obedient dogs; they come when they are called.” – Rémy de Gourmont
i’m learning to train my inner demons to be more obedient.
so i learned something valuable in therapy today.
i wanted to share it with the foxhole.
someone else needed to hear it…