in this life,
we have three options:

find a potential
find a potential for right now
die alone

added: dressing nice and never trying to catch any diseases.
we encounter many wolves,
foxes,
and hybrids.
some out.
some “straight”.
some curious.
its like we spend our days putting our lives to the side for “someone”.
it can leave many of us emotionally drained,
exhausted,
and not feeling worth anything.
in looking back in my life,
i can see i have always chased wolves.
i wanted this big bad wolf to be the cure of what i’m lacking within.
many times,
in the feelings of frustration and loneliness,
i have felt half crazy.
asking myself what the hell am i even doing this for?
and will i be alone for the rest of my life?
i can see why many of “us” either go insane,
become unapologetic thots,
or go “straight” and live a lie for companionship.
i had to wonder…

Can this life make you crazy?…

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the story behind this following clip is the owner of this dog passed away.
well this was the outcome…
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waking up,
my phone has over 50 texts.
a larger amount of missed phone calls.
its from various designers,
clients,
celebs,
and baller wolves.
everyone wants something from me.
i’m happy to give it to them.
my days are spent:

traveling
styling
writing
 smiling

i am behind the scenes of almost every event.
i’ve casted models for every music video.
the books ive written are best sellers.
i secretly work along side big names.
i’m the best kept secret in hollywood.
they call on me personally for assistance with their issues.
i’m a therapist,
a fixer,
and a life line all rolled into one.
i have no complaints.
i wanted this.
i wanted to be “independent”.
no more dealing with a dictator and army that followed.
its just me and my own rules.
that is happiness to me…
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well i’m sure you heard the news today about michael brown.
if not,
well then let me update you…
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ive been over thinking.
i’ll admit it.
ive also been letting irrelevant things get to me.
this job and just feeling stagnant being one of them.
over thinking + fear + depression =
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can i be honest about something?
without being judged?
i know you will judge me.
it’s not like i have any real shame.
i have spoken worse on these internet pages of mine.
ready?
here goes…
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