someone i use to know told me something that lives rent free in my head:

“when you blindly support someone,
or take money to only say/font good things,
when they do something that you don’t agree with,
you will HAVE to continue saying and supporting them.”

this is why i try to stay neutral and objective on The Foxhole,
even with celebs or attentionistos i like/lust.
ever since the file cabinet has started being released,
i see many blind supporting jackals starting to switch sides.
some of these folks however,
like megyn kelly,
have shown us how far she has sold her soul…

fonting of whitney,
her voice really comforts me.

before the sun was up this morning,
i got an update about something that defeated me.
this is where panic and anxiety usually comes from for me lately.
as of recent,
i’ve been listening to ariana’s “eternal sunshine: brighter days ahead”.
it’s one of those albums i found much needed comfort in.
this morning tho:

something told me to listen to “the preacher’s wife” soundtrack

sidebar: you wanna know something wild?
i have NEVER watched that movie and i don’t know why.

it was like a ding in my spirit.
i discovered that album really late but ironically enough,
back in 2003,
i would play “step by step” on repeat during difficult times.

i remember one day,
playing it on repeat,
as i laid on the floor and giving all my troubles to God.

so this morning,
i put the album on when i went to the store.
as the songs played,
i felt a peace that i haven’t felt in a long time.
when i got back in,
i was putting the groceries up and this song played:

“the Lord is my shepherd” by cissy houston with hezekiah walker & the love fellowship crusade choir

now i’ve heard this song many times,
but passively listened to the lyrics.
it didn’t stand out to me like “i love the Lord” or “hold on, help is on the way“.
these lyrics stood out to me like no other…

someone shared a story with me recently and i wanted to share it with you.
its for all of those who are going through something,
or maybe you aren’t and like positivity shit.

when we look back in our lives,
we don’t realize things that go wrong help us in the future.

i have experienced shit going wrong and in the present moment,
i won’t even act like i don’t have a meltdown.
i’m asking if i’m cursed or if God hates me.
when i see how it helped or revealed something in the future,
in a few occasions helping me avoid danger,
i learned that maybe it all happened for a reason.
so this story is called,
“maybe” by alan watts,
and “maybe” someone in The Foxhole needed to read this story today…

its so heavy in my life rn,
i had to make a playlist of whitney’s gospel tracks and spiritual songs.

truly.
this year has been…

i faced so many disappointments,
especially with things and people i thought i knew.
i can’t even trust when i’m on solid ground anymore.
shit that don’t even make sense either.
just shit going wrong because the devil wants to fuck with me.
i told a friend the other day:

“if this was 2015,
i think i would have broken from all the weight.”

going further back,
i always use to say 2003 was one of the toughest years of my life.
2025 year has cracked me open to force me to pick up the pieces.
this year has broke me open and all the pieces…

i like to believe everyone has a fetish in the type of whatever they are into.
sometimes,
they have a couple in rotation.
some seek hairy bears,
others love a skinny age-appropriate twinks,
and many will stop what they are doing to get into a fat tail.
some males strictly are into feminine; others are obsessed with masculine.
there is the thrill of DL hunting; there is the comfort of those living out loud.

sidebar: i often wonder what is usually asked for at those “conventions”.
allegedly,
( x grindr blows up ) when they roll around but are they looking for decks or twinks?

there is just something about a muscular male being naked that drives stark mad.

hello,
welcome in to the Foxhole if you are new.
when they are thick and stacked AF,
forget it.
which is wild because once we see a drop,
many don’t live up to the sexual fantasies.
many are nice to look at but so dry in stroke resumes.
( x this ) is what i expect and its never like this.
it always comes off like many of them never had sex before.

as you know,
we love a muscular and stacked baller wolf around dese parts.
we have had a few ex-baller wolves get into sex work and it was a massive fail.
there is one former NFL baller wolf that gets it right for me tho.
Foxhole…

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my tumblr Foxhole will remember him.

fonting from the earlier conversation,
this following is the perfect example.
back in tumblr’s past,
this wolf was exposed constantly on there.
i remember everyone being obsessed with his tail.
( x this ) being the one drop i remember that set tumblr on fire.
i think Foxholers and the like were obsessed with wanting to see his stroke resume.

he has had many different lives since then.

remember when i fonted earlier that it usually starts with trans vixens and then…
well,
a F-BI sent me an alleged update on his new life and…

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