I Want You To Experience Me

Screen Shot 2015-10-11 at 10.08.52 AMi got this in my email this morning.
i liked the question so i thought i’d answer

i would like inspire people.

that is what i really strive for.
i’m not here to be the “gay” or “straight” savior.
i don’t wake up thinking that.
that’s usually the problem for most.
i do wake up thinking:

“what topic we gonna get into in the foxhole today?”

i’ve always approached you as the “the moody friend in your head”.
the one who:

make you laugh
pulls at your heart strings
can have his (he)bitch moments
does some dumb shit
can tell you when/how you fucked all the way up

we also gonna talk shit,
gawk at fine wolves,
and i might just say what you were thinking.
hell you may even have the opportunity to curse me out.

its always fun in my world.

that all comes with being taken seriously.
i always want you take me seriously.

if this site takes me to higher heights,
i don’t really see myself changing for the worse.
i don’t see “new black” in my future.
i’ll save that for the insecure blacks.

my life continues to grow with this site.
i hope yours as well.
i’m happy you are on this journey with me.

56ro3Splove as always!

13 thoughts on “I Want You To Experience Me

  1. Jamari when I googled something back in January of 2012 and your blog came up in my google results I have been coming here faithfully since. It says something when your readers like:The Man, Tajan, Jay, Lindo, Old Head, who has been commenting on this blog for a long time now. I was 22 years old when I first came here now I’m 26 and this blog has helped me grow and finally come to terms with my sexuality. Even though I’m still struggling and I’m discreet with my sexuality hopefully one day I get the strength to finally come out the closet. It truly helps me coming here and seeing that other guys are like me and face the same struggles I do. Thanks again for your time and energy for almost always getting up here and writing something even when you don’t feel like it and thanks to everyone who comments because one short sentence that you write could truly be saving someone’s life.

    1. ^Said it all, basically.

      I’ve lurked for so long & just started commenting here. (Don’t judge me niggas, lol.)

      Still a noob, youngest in the brotherhood, etc. lol, but J, you speak some real shit & it’s appreciated.

      When that psychic’s premonition becomes reality, I’ll be the one chanting to the computer screen “GO BEST FRIENNNNN!” Lmao.

    2. ^^^^This is everything. Thanks J! I “stumbled” upon this blog back in 2012 when I was going through depression. This site , along with the bible, helped me a lot.
      Heck I religiously read this blog several times a day the same way I read my bible lol.

  2. I was looking for porn. That is how I came acrosss this site, this was back in 2012. Didn’t understand it at first. But one day I was like: “What the name of that blog I went on that one time?” After that I was hooked. Keep up the GREAT work!!!

  3. I love your blog. You inspire me to write more on my own. I follow your ups, your downs, your joy and depression…it’s never a dull moment in the foxhole. I’m an old head so you keep me up on current stuff. Your blog often gives me a smile on a ho-hum day. Sometimes the things you do make me angry but you make me realize we are all growing and learning in life. Keep up the good work. You have a great future ahead. And please don’t stop writing.

  4. Love it, your blog has become a safe haven for not only me but everyone else on here. I found you blog after an the first or second episode of Scandal season 2 when you did a mini recap and have been hooked ever since. When I say hooked I mean I went back and read every entry you wrote from the beginning ( it took me about a month when ever I had free time) m. I was able to relate to every post and finally felt like I had found a place that spoke to me.

    You have taken us through your ups and down over the years and it’s been quite the journey, thanks for sharing.

  5. I came across your blog via Google also (a loooonnngg time ago). I can’t remember what I was looking for, but it doesn’t matter now. lol. Your blog has helped me in many ways and for that I say thank you. Along with other readers I’m sure, it has changed my perspective on things. I look forward to your entries, and I feel like we are all one big dysfunctional family in the Foxhole. lol
    When you make it big (never say if), don’t forget about us dude! MUCH RESPECT AND LOVE!

  6. i want to personally thank everyone for these beautiful comments.
    i appreciate you all leaving love.
    it was a blessing to read these and i know your blessings will reign down in return.

    thank you and sooooooooooooooo much love!
    -me.

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