“i am a magnet.
i draw all of god’s blessings to me.”
i even put a picture of a big magnet on my phone.
i wanted it to face the opposite direction.
so when i hold my phone,
it will draw my desires to me.
i thought i may have done something wrong…
today was one of the most busiest and aggravating days I’ve had in a while.
i almost felt like i was going to quit.
i said “almost”.
i’m ain’t stupid.
i even imagined myself drinking a whole bottle of wine.
did i mention that fantasy was at 10am?
i walked in this morning and before i could get settled,
my new boss is chewing my head off.
we had a lot of new deadlines due for tomorrow.
plus various meetings with a ton of clients.
it also felt like everyone else was giving me an attitude.
of course liar liar being one of them.
i called her because i needed help on something:
“i thought you didn’t need any help?”
“hey the phone hung up.
i think we lost the connection.
well at least i’m hoping…”
she also tried to call me out in this correspondence email this afternoon.
i had to shut her down professionally.
it’s confusing why she tries to play me like this?
i always end up calling her out on the dumb shit.
other than that,
i left work exhausted.
this new department is not like my other one.
i’m slowly starting to hate it.
i had to wonder if the magnet affirmation started working tho?
maybe it drew this horrendous day to show me that i actually do want more.
i did notice how happy i was talking to a guest that came in.
the guest actually works at one of the biggest fashion magazines in the world.
we were talking about different things going on in entertainment.
i was able to talk about something which actually involved their company as well.
i knew things they were surprised i knew.
um i’m jamari fox.
this situations make me feel like i’m wasting away behind a desk.
taking orders and battling a bobble head around the corner.
god i hope not.