folks really be having nasty attitudes when they’re in the closet.
i’m not fonting about those who are discreet and comfortable in their own fur.
i’m actually fonting about the ones who are dl and heavily closeted.
those be the ones that are straight battle axes out here.
it reminds me of the vixens who have a nasty attitudes at work.
as soon as she starts getting regular dick downs,
suddenly she’s buying breakfast and skipping through the halls.
that’s usually how the “mean closeted one” comes off.
they always give themselves away with the attitude too.
so i was fonting to one of my foxholers about randy b yesterday…
he was shocked that he put the entry up in his ig stories.
i was shocked myself.
i was told how before,
when i wrote about randy,
he deleted all the foxhole entries.
from my own standpoint,
i remember how rude and standoffish he came off.
that was the alleged talk of foxholers who met him.
it surprised tf outta me with the shout out and responded so nicely.
now he is out and in a relationship,
he seems like he is settling into the life nicely.
i was the same way.
being attracted to the same sex,
but feeling uncomfortable with what i assumed being “gay” was.
i can thank my parents and bullies for for that.
whenever i saw overly feminine males,
and remembering what my parents would say about gays,
it was all very scary to me to accept myself.
once i became a lot more comfortable,
things got easier for me to navigate in the forest.
don’t get me wrong,
i’ll admit that some bolder gays make me a little uncomfortable,
because they tend have no filter,
but they don’t intimidate me as they once did.
i can admit it’s all in my head anyway.
as someone is trying to figure themselves out,
they will come with a guard up.
some of the attentionistos are like that.
they’ll be homophobic as hell,
get upset to be on the foxhole,
but will be “gay for pay” out in these forests.
i’m sleep tho.
the life can be intimidating.
it’s a lot to process the insecurities that come with it.
it doesn’t make it right since they can be some straight assholes.
although their actions can catch me off guard,
and they can low key annoy tf outta me,
i try to remember when i was there.
i might be too optimistic of others tho.