happy birthday, jamari fox (now what have you learned?)

another birthday; a new fox.
this last year was pretty intense,
but it ended pretty solid.
besides that food poisoning stint earlier this week.
i was sitting here,
listening to some jazz,
while thinking about everything i’ve learned,
either good or bad.
this is a list

when something ends in my life,
it ended for a reason.
stop asking questions or getting depressed over it

– i’ve seen karma hit those who did me wrong faster than usual

– my psychic abilities have been stronger than usual too.
i’m really connected to The Universe on some higher level shit

– i need a new macbook.
my mac is getting slower than usual.
i can’t afford a new one right now

– i can’t do anything,
be anyone,
love another,
if i don’t love myself first.
insecurities be really fuckin me up out here

– i have really amazing friends in my life.
i can count them on more than one hand

– the best response to a shady muthafucka is a kind one.
my energy doesn’t align with mess

– being a perfectionist and trying to be in control has to end in my life

– some white people are really triflin’ in the workplace.
this is not to say black folks aren’t a mess,
but white folks in corporate play another set of games if they don’t like you.
i’m tired of working with them

– i’m not good in groups.
i’ll forever be “the outcast”.
i’m okay with that.

– i discovered oat milk and i LOVE it
vanilla flavor tho

– i kinda took it hard when trey songz had a baby.
in my mind,
he would be childless for a longer time.
in my mind,
he would fuck me into another dimension.

ugh

– i’ve wanted love more than ever this year.
i don’t think anyone would actually love me.
i’m not like the typical “gay” who gets into a relationship quick

– i do want to get fucked and GOOD tho.
i’ve been more horny than i’ve ever been this year too

– i think i met a “work wolf 2”,
but i’m not going down that path unless i’m totally sure.
i barely got over the original “work wolf 1”

– i still don’t believe i’m attractive.
as much as folks tell me,
i feel ugly and my flaws stick out more.
that may never change

– success is right around the corner for me.
i feel i’d be more successful than being in a relationship

– it’s funny the celebs i’ve recently met,
spoken to,
joked with,
and they don’t realize they’ve been talking to the owner of this platform.
most of them i’ve written about.
nothing slanderous.

i wonder if they’d like me if they knew it was me tho?

– i found a facial regiment that works for me.
i went back to the basics.
hoping around from product to product tore my skin up.
im gonna stick with what works and incorporate little changes here and there

—–

…and that’s it.
i’m sure there’s more,
but those are the ones that came to me first.
i don’t know what this new year will bring,
but i’m excited for new adventures and a brand new era.

Happy birthday to all the other Cancer folks

let this be our year to get out of these shells!

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Author: jamari fox

the fox invited to the blogging table.

56 thoughts on “happy birthday, jamari fox (now what have you learned?)

  1. Happy Birthday J! Wishing you all the best for this coming year ! Fellow Cancer here also my birthday was on the 1st πŸ˜€πŸŽ‚πŸŽπŸŽ‰πŸŽŠπŸŽ‰πŸŽπŸŽ‚πŸ˜€

    1. Happy Birthday bro bro! I knew you were a kindred Cancer. Only we could be so expressive and self aware. Many blessings in the year to come.

      1. ^thank you JAY!!!
        cancers are definitely on another level of knowing self and others!
        sometimes we need to believe those hunches we get.
        they are often right!!

  2. Happy birthday Jamari! I truly hope you find love within yourself and that will manifest into everything else concerning you. I’m glad you have a support team around because that’s one of life’s greatest gifts. I wish you nothing but love success and happiness. I love this blog because it gives me the chance to interact with other gay men in a way where we can be vulnerable and truthful without all the bullshit we face in reality. Thank you for this space!

  3. Happy birthday, Jamari Fox, and have a wonderful day and year ahead. Also, thank you for this website. It’s a daily essential read!

  4. Happy Birthday Jamari!! Enjoy your day!! Enjoy life, because you got this!!! Get some sex and have some cake!! Lol πŸ˜‚

  5. It’s your birthday , so you know what that means …BIRTHDAY SEX jk πŸ˜‚.

    Have an amazing birthday πŸŽ‚ “It is not happy people who are thankful,it is thankful/grateful people who are happy.”Despite all the trials and tribulations we all go through you we must never forget the many things we have to be thankful for.❀

  6. Happy birthday. The line about being an outcast got to me. I also don’t work well in groups. Also, the one about things ending for a reason and not getting depressed about it. I also need to accept that. I also understand having insecurities, as I am quiet, shy, anxious and uncomfortable with my weight. You can do this. I can do this. Never forget to persevere forward.

    1. ^dkrom,
      i love this.
      i’m glad you were able to take something from my lessons for the past year.
      i hope we can achieve everything we desire and move past the monsters in our own heads.
      thank you for the well wishes!

  7. Happy Birthday J! Thanks for allowing us to be a part of your journey. I’m an OG on this blog, and it’s been a pleasure watching you grow. Wishing you the best.

  8. Happy Birthday Jamari, you’re my spirit animal. Always enjoy (and look forward to) reading your post. Hope God continue to raid down his blessings on you

  9. I just typed a few words about why I don’t celebrate birthdays and blah blah, then I realized this isn’t about me so I deleted it πŸ™‚

    Anyhoo, Happy Birthday Jamari!
    Thank you for sharing a little slice of your world with us πŸ₯°

  10. Happy Birthday J, hope your day is filled with love, laughter, good friends, good gifts and many blessings. Can I get the Foxhole to show Jamari some Cash App Love with at least a Dollar to Grow On.

  11. OMG Happy Birthday Jamari!!
    things will get better dont worry and be bold with whatever u do and not give a single FUCK what others think

  12. Celebrate your day with Happiness*blessings* love* safety *Peace of Mind and Heart !!!

    You re so worthy Beautiful!!!!

  13. You’re a Cancer, too? Now I know why I liked you from the beginning. When I meet folks online, I give them everything but my real birthday so I won’t get doxxed lol. But I’m a Cancer, too. Congrats on being born in this season lol. Happy birthday!!!!!

  14. Happi belated birthday I as well share some of your thoughts white folks in the coparate world is a country on it’s own be careful I find dl men are very into me idk why and I am mad at trey for fucking up my fantasy as well bit I know good things come to those whom wait good luck

  15. Happy Belated Bday Jamari! All the best to you man and thank you for creating this blog that has been such an outlet for so many of us. Wish you nothing but blessings.

  16. thanks everyone for such wonderful birthday wishes!
    i read each one and i’m so blessed to have such a strong family behind me.
    i’m so appreciative and extremely gracious for all the love you showed me!

    -much love to you all,
    jf

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