group therapy broke me

sometimes,
we learn quickly that there are others in worst positions than us.
our problems are molehills compared to the mountains of many others.
i asked my therapist to try out group therapy last week.
i was very excited about taking my therapy journey to the next step,
but it ended up draining me for a few days


all i could think about was all that i had heard.
many of their stories really triggered me tbh.
i learned i was a high-key empath too.
i felt so much empathy for those who shared their truths.
i’ve been where they were but not to that extent.
many admit they are just “surviving” every single day.
i’ve been feeling like that lately tbh.
it was pretty bad and i felt myself slipping into a terrible place tbh.

after feeling like i had reached my limit,
i took emotional refuge from one of my closest friends.
i had withdrawn from every and thing.
she ended up sharing with me how i don’t need group therapy,
making me realize the same as well.
my therapy journey had allowed me to grow in so many ways.
my issues are so small compared to all i heard within that group.
it humbled me.
i have bad days but i have worked very hard to reach a solid footing,
unlike others who are merely surviving.

i’m not fonting that group therapy is bad.
it’s helpful if you want to share your struggles with others in the struggle.
i have been putting in the work with my 1v1 therapy sessions.
a few years ago,
group therapy would have been top-tier for me.
nowadays,
not so much.

lowkey: i think it’s disrespectful of me even being there tbh.
someone else who needs it deserves that spot.

4 thoughts on “group therapy broke me

  1. 20 in therapy, >5 years in group therapy, almost 20 years in committed relationship, 8 years gay married. This resonates as due to a number of emotional stresses i (anxious attachment) trauma bonded with a fearful avoidant. Took a few weeks, a lot of emotional work to figure out but i did. I’ve found my individual therapy, journey is valuable to share in group. I have the experience to speak to others, to sometimes help break down what the facilitator/others say into language that the speaker can understand, take in, own, use to heal, move forward.
    With practice you can as well. You can also learn other emotional skills as well while helping others, helping yourself.

    1. ^ this is so deep!
      thank you for sharing this.

      i am gonna stick with it because this week was really good.
      the energy was different and i really felt connected to everyone!

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