i came the the conclusion recently:
I don’t like smoking weed
confession: i did because everyone around me did.
tv and music always makes it seems so amazing,
yet i never have those experiences.
every time i smoked,
i always ended up:
…with every thought in my head enhanced
… a horrible depression the next day
alcohol loosens me up,
but weed is actually a downer for me.
the last time i smoked (which was last year for a r&b/birthday party),
i felt like i could pick up on everyone’s energy tho.
i felt intensely psychic af.
that’s a whole nother story.
they say weed is the gateway drug use to harder drugs.
i can believe it.
i saw this video on twitter that broke my heart.
it was the stages of drug use with this one vixen and well…
Stages of drugs.
This is heart breaking 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 pic.twitter.com/eGiF3t3o45
— jimoh jamila Motunrola🇳🇬 ⚪ (@mobytoolz) April 24, 2020
it’s like the story line in “snowfall” on fx with mel,
which legit destroyed me:
a fictional character had me not sleeping at night.
i know some folks who had promising lives and drugs ruined them.
you’ll see them tweaking on the streets and there’s nothing you can do about it.
i’ve always wondered…
Why do people end up being crackheads?
is it depression?
toxic people around you?
generational curses from our families?
we see so many examples of “what not to do“,
but we end up doing it anyway.
one of my home-vixens wanted to try coke because her friends did/do it,
especially her toxic ex whose life is ruined because of drugs.
“I wanted to see what is so special about it and what about it has everyone so hooked.”
i guess i answered my own question.
low-key: they don’t let you know that most celebs are functioning addicts.
i think a majority are to whatever their drug of choice is.