growth.
you know when you have grown because you look at things differently.
before you may have cursed someone out for violating your entire situation.
now you take a deep breath,
ignore,
and move on.
let them look stuck on stupid because you pay them dust.
what happens when you realize you outgrow people in your life?
even though you still have a connection to them?
well i have been talking to a friend i x mentioned on here recently,
but now i’m realizing i’m starting to be over it.
we had a conversation recently that went like this…

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people think i’m stuck up.
they say i look intimidating.
i can see that.
i went to bed last night with the last entry in my mind.
the comments got to me a little.
i didn’t feel offended,
but i had to look at myself and had to ask,

“is it me?”

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i hope when god blesses me with a great wolf.
i want the typical things like loyalty,
intelligence,
faithfulness,
money,
but i hope he always turns me on.
i can’t get with just anyone and be happy.
i would cheat on that poor fella like it was nothin.
at least i’m honest.
i want that “olivia and fitz/scandal type bond”…

damn.
their chemistry turns me on.
as dysfunctional as that is,
he loves her.
the way he looks at her when she walks in a room.
it’s like time stops.
he is attracted to everything about her.
mind.
body.
soul.
i nearly exploded watching that episode…

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a reader sent me a video that i remember watching a while ago,
from a movie years back in the 90s,
but the message still rings true today
i don’t know if you all ever watched a spike lee joint called jungle fever?

it was about a black man who left his wife to be with a white woman.
it was also the famous movie where halle berry played a crackhead,
launching her career.
the movie had a scene with a bunch of black women discussing black men.
a black man bashing party!
how fun!…

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disclaimer: not me.

you haven’t been out in a while.
fuck it!
you put on your best outfit and head out to a lounge.
it’s pretty gay friendly.
you sit at the bar and scope the scene.
you see him.
he sees you.
after some smooth eye fuckin,
you invite him over to talk.
you decided after a good hour,
that you are ready for some fuckin.
we are men, right?
this is what we are suppose to do.
they say.
you go back to his spot and ya’ll both rock each others worlds.
after the clean up,
you say “bye”.
couple months later,
you are just sick for no reason.
you find out you have meningitis.
what do you do?…

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“well that dick ain’t gonna meet itself jamari.”

i love the people in my life.
that was the text discussion i was having with a fox last week.
i was ranting how i needed some pipe.
selective pipe.
the type of pipe with a nice pair of these:

…
(whew)
sittin’ just right.
sure it may not be “good dick” stroke wise,
but nothing wrong with a visual nut right?
last regular basic hybrid i gave a chance was a snore.
he fucked me to sleep.
literally.

“jack’d?”.

oh that place.
how we always go back to social sites when the going gets… hard.
after downloading the app again,
i decided to try something different this time…

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