listennnnnnn….

i’ve come to two conclusions about that assassination.
it has been sitting on my spirit for a while now.
i like to look deep into things when i’m connecting dots.
so check it,
one…

we are living in times that being anything other than white will be scrutinized.
this has been happening before this current climate tbh.
look at all the shit bey has to go through while other white artists get to be basic.
shilo sanders,
the son of deion sanders,
made it all the way to the nfl with his brother,
shedeur.
unfortunately:

The Bucs released S Shilo Sanders less than 24 hours after he was ejected from the team's final preseason game. pic.twitter.com/fyjQcGVHQy

— Yahoo Sports (@YahooSports) August 24, 2025

it’s looking like “grand opening; grand closing” because…

recently,
i caught feelings…
or so i thought.
he is so sexy to me.
it’s his voice,
how attentive he is,
and how he made me feel seen when we were together.

But…

there were many times i’d feel more confused than connected,
but somehow,
i still wanted more.
for a while,
i told myself it would work.
“lied to myself“,
actually.
as the conversations showed more emotional detachment,
and the connection started feeling more skimp,
i started feeling something i knew all too well…

i’ve been playing “the last of us 2” as one of my friends watches.
i had so many question about the last season of the show,
“the last of us“.
the first game came with my ps4 and i loved it.
when the sequel came out…

…i was pretty excited but BOY,
where the opinions i started hearing about it were bleak.

When I asked other I know about it,
they told me how terrible it was because of how they handed Joel.

whew.
i actually got my “a-ha” moment with that sentence above.
so I didn’t play it off of what I was hearing but not only that:

We have to play as a character named Abby that gave Joel his fate for his actions.

don’t even get me started on the alleged transphobia in regards this vixen.
i think it’s because you have to play as her afetr what happened and people were upset.
that was the big “fuck this game” because of what happened to joel.
interestingly enough,
as i’ve learned abby’s backstory while playing,
i’m going on record to font that as much as Joel was my Zaddy…

so diddy was only found guilty of two charges.
surprise surprise.
at this point,
i wouldn’t be shocked he walks out of prison today.
we got a “big beautiful bill” that is about to screw many americans,
including those who voted for our new president,
out of their health care and benefits.
anyone ( x lower income ) could as well continue to stay poor.
so that is going to end well! /s
don’t even start with americans being considered of deportation:

every day,
it’s always something in this forest that makes me question reality.
even in my own life,
it feels like:

Nothing makes sense,
everything is upside down,
and I’m even questioning if God care anymore.

but then i realized something in this current timeline…

how do two people grow up in the same orbit,
but end up speaking completely different emotional languages?
i asked cousin hybrid that exact question yesterday.
his answer…