like i fonted,
yesterday i was tired.
i went to bed at 7am from playing video games to waking up at 10am.
i’m thinking it’s 3 in the afternoon.
nope.
10 am.
i stayed up pretty much the whole day,
but i wanted to go to bed at a decent hour.
for whatever reason,
i was tired,
but i couldn’t fall asleep.
i had a lot of my mind tbh.
one of my wolf homeboys introduced me to this thing he recently used for insomnia.
i take melatonin,
but it wears me out in the day.
he said it was this youtube video that helped him crash and stay sleep…
Continue reading “that binaural beats me to sleep, daddy” →

photo credit: hbo

dating is hard.
getting to know someone is hard.
it’s all hard.
you meet someone you’re interested in,
you talk for hours,
fuck for hours,
and then they just up and dip on you.
they could text you to ask if they can come through,
but they can’t use those same words to let you know they need a minute.
they can fuck a stranger they met raw,
but be scared to let you know they aren’t interested.
it’s really disrespectful,
but after watching “insecure” i had to wonder…

Are many people out here dating with severe mental health issues?

it was interesting to hear nathan and issa’s conversation…
Continue reading “he might have ghosted you because he’s mentally unwell” →

photo credit: hbo

watching last night’s episode of “insecure: lowkey trying” was triggering for me.
i didn’t to watch it last night because i was up til 7am,
sunday morning,
playing video games with my gaming friends.
so i was tired af and went to bed early last night.
i know this morning i was gonna watch it as soon as i got up.

“Wow.”

i ended up crying because i been in issa’s position before and it really fuckin’ sucked…
(light spoilers ahead)

Continue reading “not all broken things need to be fixed… right? (insecure)” →

i laid in bed these past few nights and i asked myself:

“Why do people think I’m attractive?”

i’ve always assumed i’m ugly.
when i was younger,
i would get picked on for my big nose and big lips.
i remember always being called “rubber lips” by one of my classmates.
even though i messed with all kinds of fine wolves,
i never thought i was attractive,
but i still did my thing even tho people said i was.
when i revealed myself to the foxhole,
it wasn’t so much about “look at me i’m crutes!!”,
but moreso…

It was time to stop hiding within the shadows of a prison I was creating.

so today,
i got a dm on instagram with this:

when i clicked the link…
Continue reading “i was on a “ugly photos” page” →

a foxholer sent me a picture of a random good lookin wolf today,
but he felt tremendous amounts of shame.

“Here I am lusting even through these times of injustice.”

um,
you are human babe.
humans get horny even in times of despair.
i feel like those are the times our horniness is it’s most vulnerable.
so the forests have been talking about trevor a. taylor who is pictured above.
he went viral in this recent video during a protest in texas yesterday,
but now he’s about to be the next “it” wolf once i font about him…
Continue reading “when trevor a. taylor barks, we listen (being shirtless helped too)” →

…and that would be highly impossible because i don’t have a uterus.
attachment.
one of the things i’ve realized about myself is i attach myself too quick.
some things,
not so much,
but things i really want i end up getting bind to.
it can be from a number of things…

Continue reading “our attachment to things is literally killing us” →