chadoy leon.
a foxhole fav who was a tumblr fav years ago.
a few years ago,
he lost his brother in a very tragic way.
ive noticed something about chadoy that a foxholer picked up on too…

when my best friend and soul brother,
Star Fox,
was murdered back in 2013,
ya’ll know i was destroyed.
i shared all of those emotions here and with a few foxholers bts.
here is something you didn’t know:

I shut down all my personal social media and was gone for 8 years.
Not only that,
I changed my number and went absolutely ghost on folks.
I only fucked with those I was closest to and the Foxhole.
In doing so,
I lost a ton of associates and wolves because I shut them all out.

i’ve noticed with chadoy that he’ll take down pics,
put the same pics back up a few weeks later,
turn the page off,
turn it back on,
and have only his brother’s pic up.
if you pay attention to what he says in his stories,
you can tell something is up because its very erratic.
i could be off base here but:

He needs to find a therapist.

in my personal opinion,
i think he needs to talk to someone.
his followers are gonna suck his dick because he looks good.
that is the issue when you are fine and hit a rough patch.
i’ve noticed with some of my male friends who are gym wolves:

They’ll go to the gym as a form of therapy.

…but you can work out all day,
fuck as many hoes all night,
but it’s a small bandaid trying to heal big wounds.
i know many who are in relationships and made their partner therapists.
those relationships never end up working in the long run.

this entry wasn’t meant to be shady and i wasn’t gonna write it.
something inside urged me because i felt empathy for him.
i know what it’s like to lose someone close to you tragically.
i just felt in my spirit he is struggling and needed to talk to a professional.
he could be,
i dunno.
someone who can help him rather than followers and workout partners.

lowkey: i wish the black community didn’t frown upon seeking therapy.
i know so many hurt people but entertaining on social media.
they are doing it because they have grown addicted to dopamine.
we can’t escape the silence and our thoughts tho.