you gotta watch some of the things you let in your life.
you also gotta watch closely for the energy it gives you.
it could be:

movies
music
relationships (platonic or not)

if it’s too dark,
it could take over your spirit and have you all fucked up.
so i watched “the walking dead” premiere last sunday.
it is one of my favorite shows,
but that shit had me all fucked up the last few days…

now i’ve seen some sick shit in movies and tv,
but that was sadistic.
like,
you line folks up and made them watch their family beat to death with a barbed wire bat.
they showed the killings as it was happening and the aftermath.
brains and eyeballs on the floor.
how sasha and maggie reacted was hard to watch as well.
abraham’s secret goodbye to sasha had me in tears:

“The peace sign was something that ran with Abraham and Sasha, throughout the whole series. It was this sort of unspoken, this very loaded peace sign. We had to find a way for Abraham to connect with Sasha, for him to say goodbye, specifically to Sasha, because we had already established in the finale of last year that eye contact was not broken, but you saw Abraham’s point of view when he got hit by the bat, he got knocked down, he came back up. We could add dialogue, because we didn’t know if he was talking or not, with the ‘suck my nuts’ line, but there was no way for him to literally turn away and address, any way, even kind of nod, and nothing to Sonequa [Martin-Green], because we’d already filmed that. So going back into it, we had to figure out a way that he could basically tell Sasha that everything was gonna be okay, and to say goodbye.” – Michael Cudlitz on Abraham showing peace sign right before his death

sigh.
i ugly sobbed like i knew those people.
i felt like i was secretly inducted into the illuminati watching that.

watching the two who got killed so graphically lowkey traumatized me.
i had nightmares that same night after watching it.
i felt moody and depressed the next day.
i can’t explain how i felt,
but i had to do some detoxing just to get that off my spirit.
i think because with other shows,
there is usually some happy ending we look forward to.

you gotta be careful what you let in foxhole.
it might be harmless entertainment,
but demons can attach to you in many forms.

lowkey:

i completely agree.
darryl gotta go.
ima still keep watching,
but ima have to watch a disney movie rigt after.