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It Isn’t Safe Inside: The Life of A High Functioning Depressed Person

“i think i’m a high functioning depressed person…”

at the time when one of my foxholers told me that,
i was in the middle of a “moment”.
you know how they say males only have “moments”?
a few weeks ago.
that was around that time the foxholer hit me with it.
it resonated with me,
but i thought i was commanding this “new day; new me” shit,
so i was in a “happy” state.
well i have to agree with my foxholer because…

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“The Walking Dead” Had Me So Depressed This Week

btriyh3cmaaeixcyou gotta watch some of the things you let in your life.
you also gotta watch closely for the energy it gives you.
it could be:

movies
music
relationships (platonic or not)

if it’s too dark,
it could take over your spirit and have you all fucked up.
so i watched “the walking dead” premiere last sunday.
it is one of my favorite shows,
but that shit had me all fucked up the last few days…
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Azealia Banks May Need You To Pray For Her

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so you know after the smoke clears,
after all your destruction of the bridges you burned,
you are simply left with just you.
it’s a hard pill to swallow when the forests ain’t fuckin with you no more.
well azealia banks,
who has been pretty much banished,
is feeling the repercussions of her past decisions.
she got on her facebook and fonted this..
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The Wheel In The Cage Goes Round and Round (Round and Round)

tumblr_static_a4fcrqd2b7cw0gk80sk8ckoggi’m going through something right now.
my energy level is letting me know that.
i feel so tired,
like i could sleep forever.
i don’t want to do anything.
i know exactly what it is…
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You Answered My Cries In The Dark Forest

tumblr_muve6cEIau1qb30dwo1_500i wrote something yesterday,
not out of a place of sadness,
but looking out from where i am right now.
it felt good to let it off my chest.
i was actually at a peaceful place when i wrote it.
tired af,
but at peace.
that is the scary part because i was in a zone of no fucks.
i didn’t cry when i really write something emotional.
i was good.
i just wanted to release.
that i did…
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How We Hurt Others and Not Even Realize It

tumblr_ms0fkcmGBu1sumrm9o1_500that feeling when…
someone you were once cool with
someone you had a bond with
someone you thought was different than the rest
leaves your life with no explanation.
not only that,
but they act like you don’t exist to them anymore.

they turn their head as you walk by
tries to avoid you
suddenly becoming distant and closed off

they hold what you did wrong as their own secret.
no way can you even explain yourself or even fix the issue.
everything is left unsaid.

that is my relationship with work wolf as of this moment.
it would be better if i didn’t have to see him everyday.
the silent treatment brings back many memories for me…
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