You ever felt depressed but because of society or whatever,
you forced yourself to be together when you didn’t feel like it?

“It’s okay to not be okay.”

the handsome one said that last night.
he was saying how he hasn’t been feeling his best.
between the LA fires,
everything happening in the news,
and Lord knows the idea of what the next four years looks like.
his honesty was refreshing.
this good looking wolf admitting he was not ok at his moment.
i’m going to go with a controversial hot take…

my writing tends to come from a place of pain.
it’s relatable because many of us struggle with the same things.
being a black gay male isn’t easy in this hateful society.
my creative expression comes from:

hurt
sadness
depression
anxiety

for the last couple of weeks…

Continue reading “i apologize.” →

“i think i’m a high functioning depressed person…”

at the time when one of my foxholers told me that,
i was in the middle of a “moment”.
you know how they say males only have “moments”?
a few weeks ago.
that was around that time the foxholer hit me with it.
it resonated with me,
but i thought i was commanding this “new day; new me” shit,
so i was in a “happy” state.
well i have to agree with my foxholer because…

Continue reading “It Isn’t Safe Inside: The Life of A High Functioning Depressed Person” →

you gotta watch some of the things you let in your life.
you also gotta watch closely for the energy it gives you.
it could be:

movies
music
relationships (platonic or not)

if it’s too dark,
it could take over your spirit and have you all fucked up.
so i watched “the walking dead” premiere last sunday.
it is one of my favorite shows,
but that shit had me all fucked up the last few days…
Continue reading ““The Walking Dead” Had Me So Depressed This Week” →

so you know after the smoke clears,
after all your destruction of the bridges you burned,
you are simply left with just you.
it’s a hard pill to swallow when the forests ain’t fuckin with you no more.
well azealia banks,
who has been pretty much banished,
is feeling the repercussions of her past decisions.
she got on her facebook and fonted this..
Continue reading “Azealia Banks May Need You To Pray For Her” →

i’m going through something right now.
my energy level is letting me know that.
i feel so tired,
like i could sleep forever.
i don’t want to do anything.
i know exactly what it is…
Continue reading “The Wheel In The Cage Goes Round and Round (Round and Round)” →