this movie was a trip.
Foxhole,
watch it now on HULU.
NOW.

we have to be careful what we wish for.
i’ve learned that many times tbh.
i’ve done it with wolves,
people,
and tbh,
transitioning to this place i’m staying at now.

it isn’t always what it’s cracked up to be.
even though it drains TF outta you,
it either isn’t meant for you or meant to challenge you for better.

the pay off is you gain skills that the “easy mode” path didn’t.
i felt that way watching the 2023 movie,
“what you wish for“…

i was OD waiting for pillion to be released.
it stars alexander johan hjalmar skarsgård and harry melling.
we fonted about it ( x here ).
here i thought i’d have to wait until it was in the movies.

…and then i saw HD GIFS of scenes from the movie.
my favorite.

i read the book,
“box hill” by adam mars-jones,
and ended up hating that experience.
so when i watched the movie from the comfort of the temporary home,
i instantly noticed the differences.
i’ll try my best not to font too much spoilers…

The Foxhole knows when i’m going through something,
my spirit picks an album for me to process.

i was never a broadway kind of fox.
that was karaoke’s thing.
she is a full blown theater vixen,
who has found her way into acting in plays.
well,
i’m here to font you….

so i watched the “wicked for good” trailer and bawled.

the young me,
that frowned every time karaoke played the broadway soundtrack for the original “wicked”,
would judged at the current me.
tbh:

i hate i didn’t get into wicked sooner.

back then,
i was so concerned with fitting into spaces that never welcomed me,
i really missed a story that reflected my life back to me.

it’s funny how the things we react when we are ashamed of ourselves,
eventually come back to heal or teach us a lesson.

when i watched the first “wicked” movie last year,
i didn’t expect to relate to “the green one” so deeply…

when i saw the poster for the new movie from a24,
“pillion“,
i knew exactly what that collar represents.
someone i was talking to recently introduced me to the sub/dom culture.
it was something that i heard about but never knew the inner workings of.

i found it sexy AF when he told me that he put a collar on his last partner.
the collar represents that as a dom,
you are his.
the collar isn’t always metal btw.

he told me how when he was in the bedroom with his sub(s)…

sometimes,
i ask myself:
what forest am i living in right now?
it’s seems like a combo platter of:

a) a dream
b) a whole other timeline
c) hell
d) God’s new vision for the unserious
e) all of the above

absolutely nothing makes sense anymore.
tbh,
i don’t nothing will ever be the same.
we are too far down this circus to come out the other side.
remember ^that vixen up there?
she is the one that put the gorilla glue in her hair?

her name is tessa and because we are in the forest of the unserious,
she is going to star in a movie about,
well…