so yesterday,
i was talking like my future had already come into fruition.
i said outloud:

“well it worked out that they let me go from that job.
they still working there and i’m on my way to croatia next week.
*shrug*”

foxhole,
i haven’t seen the word croatia anytime before that.
yesterday,
for the first time,
the country popped in my head on random.
i could have said “italy” or “the maldives”.
those are places i want to go.
nope,
croatia was what came to me.
on everything i love…

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when i get down,
i need to really realize that i’m loved.
there are some pretty great folks in my life who care about me.
when you add on the foxhole,
it’s a serious blessing.
so one of my good home wolves said he had something to give me.
we haven’t seen each other in a minute so i said come through.
he said he would swing my job after work to bring it to me.
ya’ll…

Continue reading “He Brought His Unexpected Package To Me” →

if i can work on my mind,
i think i can get anything i want.
i know you’re like:

“wtf?”

…but it’s true.
my insecurities fuck my head up.
this is why i can’t meditate correctly.
i might just be doing it wrong.
i want everything to get in sync,
but i’m having a hard time.
so…
help?…
Continue reading “Mind Over Matter” →

this weekend has been a real chill type situation.
i literally slept off/on,
played batman: arkham knight,
and did some research on a new way of life.
i am on aa quest to really learn how to use the law of attraction.
it’s something i’ve been good at subconsciously.
i always wanted to learn how to do it consciously.
i did realize two things about myself tho…
Continue reading “The Weekend of Change” →

you REALLY have to be careful what you ask for in life.
like,
4real 4real.
we often beg for things that we desire so bad,
ultimately get it,
and not realize there is a good and bad side to everything.
that bad being the thing that comes later on and you end up regretting it…
Continue reading “You Begged For It And Now You Want It To Stop” →

so i’ve mentioned that life and i are getting along.
in this entry ( x my boss gave me a cologne ),
ricky bobby asked:

“whats the high flying disk?
my life is in shambles…help me out jamari?
what is it?”

well ever since then,
ive actually been thinking how to put it into words.
“how do i explain the high flying disk without looking like a lunatic.”
well you know i’m not scared of looking crazy.
this is for all those who want to fly high…
Continue reading “Cum Fly High With Me” →