i been thinking that if everything that has happened these last 3 years,
even if i thought it was so negative,
was actually part of God’s plan?

this time last year of june 2025,
in about a month,
i was gonna come where i am now for a BBQ.
i didn’t want to come but something urged me to go.
when i left here that night to go back to new yawk,
i have on video telling my friend i was gonna live here.

“i don’t know how,
but i’m going to live here.”

and even though this transition wasn’t ‘a walk in the park…

aww andy!
i would have respected if you kept the tweet up.
posting and deleting like rih’s social media don’t know how to screenshot?

i’d imagine one of his social media saavy nuclear kids would have told him.

so us representative of tennessee,
andy ogles,
could not contain his intrusive thoughts enough.
he went on X to throw salt on the gay parade for pride month.
i don’t recall us asking for his opinion,
nor did we realize he existed.
now he put a target on his back and the hunt for his hidden grindr begins.
they never learn,
do they?
my question to these kinds of straight jackals is always…

one of the last things my mother told me on her deathbed was:

“make sure you and your sister don’t get separated.
i want you both together.”

…and i tried.
if it wasn’t jackals circling her money,
it was relatives coddling her because she was “light skin”.

Foxhole,
it was a challenge.

i often wonder what our lives would have been like if we moved to florida?
we were supposed to go live with our uncle,
but tbh,
his life crashed and burned a few years later.
as my sister got older,
her mental health got worse and worse.
unfortunately,
we don’t have the kind of relationship my mother wanted for us.
she hits me up ever so often with “i’m gonna do better” DMS.
i don’t answer because she isn’t gonna do better.

i’ve been seeing a lot of discourse online about rue,
who is played by zendaya on “euphoria“.

people saying lexi was mean.
people saying her mother should have tried harder.
people saying they wanted a happier ending for rue.

mmm.

until you’ve loved someone struggling with addiction,
or severe mental health issues…

“euphoria” ended how it was supposed to end.
i don’t like how the final third season went at times,
because it almost felt like a completely different show.
nate jacobs in his humiliation ritual arc being the main one.

it felt like the creator of “euphoria”,
sam levinson,
cut nate’s balls off,
made him wear the dog outfit cassie had on,
and had him be his little bitch until he was euthanized.
along with that story line,
labrinth being cut from music (because he created a whole mood),
and jules being pretty useless,
i think the ending was pretty solid.
spoilers included…

one thing that gets my Foxhole open is a stacked wolf like ^above.
marshun “bend me over the sink” cooper is the “stacked wolf” in this fontversation.
marshun has been a Foxhole Fav since his debut on marvin bienaime.
we lusted him so much,
The Foxhole was the first to drop that pipe leakage.
( x go back to 2017 )
my F-BI can be so…
inquisitive.

anyhoo,
marshun has done nude modeling for marvin since then.
in my fantasies,
i’ve always wondered:

“does marshun know how to use that beautiful pipe of his?”

well,
the inquisitive F-BI dropped a “cheer me up” goodie basket.
it was filled with an alleged stroke resume for review…

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would never have went to that bitch’s wedding.

…not after she played in my face after fucking my ex.
damn sure wouldn’t be helping improve her life either.

although she is vibe,
on season 3; episode 7 of “rain or shine” on “euphoria”,
maddy’s recent downfall was being too kind.

i felt that in my entire spirit.
by answering cassie’s DM to reconnect,
and going back to something that God removed her from,
maddy ended up losing A LOT.
i was expecting a whole revenge plot from maddy this season tbh.
she fell for the okey doke and cassie reminded her that she was still beneath her.

sometimes,
we need to tell that spirit of forgiveness and re-connection to…