we are in one of the hardest times in our lives.
from our cities being overrun with crime,
the cost of living being unbearable,
and dating being an absolute shit show,
we are all holding on by a tiny thread.
we are one “something” away from losing our minds.
social media was supposed to be an escape but it’s been highlighting that…

what if you met another male,
who you were 100% into,
but he wanted you to be the second half in his poly relationship…

Would you?

what if it was with a male and a vixen?
that would take a vixen being comfortable her manz is bi.
we just fonted about three gays who were in ( x an alleged poly situationship ).
ne-yo is proudly displaying his…

so as you know,
or didn’t,
but i took a 100 day challenge of shadow work.
every day,
i’d answer 2 questions from various shadow work websites in my journal.
( x this one )
( x this one )
i’m at day 95 and proud of myself that i stuck with it.
what i’ve learned confronting my shadow…

i was shocked and saddened when i read that mandisa from american idol died today.
i remembered her rooting for her to win.
she had such a warm spirit and was kind even though simon joked about her weight.
even though we don’t know what her cause of death is,
they are saying that she suffered from depression and spoke about her suicidal thoughts.
this is her,
without all the glam and turned “off”:

you can see the sadness within her eyes.
i’m starting to believe that…

*Foxhole,
if you meet someone who looks like this and he wants a monogamous relationship,
you better lock him down and keep him off the social forests.
Big Daddy right hea tho,
it’ll probably a few trips to pound town with some light sight seeing.
Let’s get into it.

the following entry is a doozy but its a real situation we may encounter.
every male we meet that gives us the googly eyes doesn’t always want something serious.
i think with the proper communication and the right questions,
we should already be on the same page with the person giving us the googly eyes.
so i remember seeing big daddy and motule all over my TL.
i didn’t get “relationship” from them because i didn’t see much chemistry between them.
they gave off “gays who have fucked a few times“:

lashawn,
who left that comment,
seems to have cum…
between those two.
in more ways than one?
the F-BI alerted me of this scandal that has the forests barking…

this weekend,
i went far down the oj simpson rabbit hole than i should have.
i was a kid when all this shit went down so i wasn’t interested.
my mother,
grandmother,
and aunt were all locked TF in during the trial.

I remember my aunt having a tabloid that showed the entire crime scene and the dead bodies.

so i watched a few things about the murders of nicole brown simpson and ron goldman,
along with researching all kinds of “who did it?“ and “what was the motive?“.
it creeped me TF out but i was so fascinated.
i learned one thing about oj simpson that reminds me of some of these black males today…