black bomber jacket
black jeans
birkenstock loafers

these ones for reference:

Foxhole,
he looked mixed but he could have been white.
he didn’t look like a rican and dominican wolf i was use to in the new yawk forest.
either way,
i don’t know what TF he was but he was fine.
i took a random outing to TJ maxx with the person i stay with.
when i was looking around the store,
he was in the bedding section with who i assumed was his vixen.
i was looking for the men’s section because i needed socks.
while i got distracted by the many pairs of jeans they had in that store,
i noticed he was by himself and closer to where i was.

…but no,
okay,
wait…

my friend said to me over the weekend:

“life is really testing you right now.
you got a big blessing on the way.”

i need blessing with an s.
it felt good to hear but when you’re in it,
it can feel condescending AF.
last week was utter chaos.

a major blowup at the beginning of the week.
a heavy walking on eggshells the middle of the week.
a 10-person sleepover at the end of the week.
a weekend guest over the weekend.
a no real space to breathe all around.

i had an anxiety attack on friday when i saw 10 people trying to squeeze in here,
and then add on top of that…

when we move from chaos to much safer ground,
for many of us,
it can leave us still in “fight or flight” mode.
we start scanning for danger when nothing is happening.
it can actually make you feel really fuckin’ nuts.
that is how i’ve been lately…

one thing about pennywise,
he is gonna torment you before he kills ya.
i think that is the beauty of this particular killing clown.

he is gonna bring the circus to your doorstep.

when i went to see it back in 2017,
the person i went with and i were scared shitless.
the part when he jumped out the movie screen made the entire theater scream,
including myself.
like a girl.
yup.
i never saw the original back in the 90s but they did a good job with the remake.
this version gave me “stranger things” but the upside down place is in the sewers.

sidebar: i must have been the only one who enjoyed the sequel.

so yesterday,
i decided to check out “it: welcome to derry“:

it’s the prequel to how this demon in clown make up came about and Foxhole…

i got a question for the Foxhole:

are we taking time out of our schedules to watch this documentary on jussie smollett?

don’t raise your paws fast enough now.
this is the trailer:

oh good Lord.
i’ll be 110% with you…

when we see a male looking like ^this,
in all this specific attire,
one can assume where they land politically.
this is probably somewhere in their phone:

my white friend told me when you see this:

assume the worst.
tbh,
it doesn’t even have to be those stereotypes.
it can be a regula degula,
especially ones we actually know.
what i find most interesting are gays who voted for current administration.
i saw this video and…