last night’s scandal completely blew me away.
i want to focus on the one thing that gave me the inspiration to write this.
if you haven’t watched it yet,
watch it ( x here ).
if you have then…
so tonight showed up the beginning stages of fitz and mellie’s marriage.
well we found out mellie was raped by fitz’s father after drinking some crown royal.
always that dark likka.
it introduced us to how she became a cold hearted bitch,
or why she does the things she does.
it made me feel sorry for her.
it also made me wonder about the assholes and the bitches out here.
we have all come across someone who is nasty to us or everyone.
no explanation why.
i had a boss at an old job and god was she a complete inside and out stamped and approved bitch.
everyone hated and feared her.
she was the only female boss at the job and she had to put on that costume for her respect.
she would talk to the wolves like they were stupid.
temps would come in and quit at lunch.
some even left on their smoke breaks.
some didn’t even smoke.
they just said they wanted to “smoke” and ran.
she got on my last fuckin nerve,
but she liked me and always kept me around.
i think she realized i didn’t “play” that as well.
im was the “andrea sachs” to her “miranda priestly”.
just i had balls.
respect knows respect.
it wasn’t until she got a boyfriend,
and got that “my back is getting blown out regularly” glow…

…did she become pleasant to everyone.
kinda.
the bitch found her asshole and they are still living happily ever after.
the way to tame a bitch or asshole is show them yours as ive learned.
they can smell fear.

no one is born a bitch.
you just don’t wake up one day and say you are gonna bring down hell fire on unsuspecting victims.
bitches and assholes are created.
many have been scarred by life/people and just take it out on everyone,
some are spoiled and are self absorbed to other people’s feelings,
and the rest are wannabes trying emulate what would get them respect.
you know a true asshole or bitch when you come across one.
a lot of gays have nasty attitudes because they’re always ready to fight for their respect.
i get it,
i think,
but they just be miserable as hell and no amount of dick/ass will change that.

me myself?
for some odd reason,
my heart hasn’t been completely hardened.
yet.
i’m still someone who is still nice,
gives everyone the benefit of the doubt,
and tries to look past the “dumbasses” and “idiots” of the world.
sure ive had my moments with people i can’t stand,
but haven’t we all?
i often wonder when my breaking point is?
when i will become the asshole?
hell will i ever become that?
something i thought about watching the episode tonight.
nite.