How do you hold on to hope when the forests seem to be falling apart?

2025 came in like an uninvited guest who trashed the place before the party even started.
first…

Have you ever noticed how attentionistos try to rewrite their past when the present starts looking brighter?

yesterday,
i got an email from the PR rep of an ex-“kinda, sorta, maybe”-still current attentionisto.
yep,
you read that right.
PR.

Sidebar: the PR person was cool.
They are just doing their job so no shade or beef there.

anyway,
they wanted me to take down a few old posts about their client.
as i scrolled through the entries,
confused as to what was so scandalous,
i couldn’t help but think to myself…

I never found Timothee Chalamet attractive until he was talking sports on ESPN.

there was something really masculine about him ( x in this moment ).
the facial hair helps too.
i’m gonna get into timothee in just a second,
but i’ve figured out something quite recently with him and kylie jenner.
one moment,
you think males are indifferent towards you and the next,
you got someone(s) “out of your league” hooked.
it’s about the universal truth…

What does it feel like to have both love and lust in perfect harmony?

i ask because this video of august alsina and zu has been living rent-free in my head.

not because i want august but because that energy,
that intimacy,
that undeniable connection is what i crave.
imagine being so drawn to your partner that you’re counting down the minutes until you hit the crib?
the way august looks into the camera,
clueless about the climbing that is heading his way,
does something to me.
if my manz don’t like at me like this when he sees me:

we have absolutely nothing to talk about.
here’s the issue tho…

The following doesn’t even hit the same once I saw our new president doesn’t even write his posts.

president jimmy carter bid this life adieu on the 29th of december.
like all presidents in this country,
their deaths are always honored.
every american flag is flown at half-mast for 30 days.
( x read it here )
unfortunately,
the new president being sworn is around this moment.
not a slight against him but ya know,
what america has pretty much always done.
are we surprised his ghost writers took to his platform to flip theeee fuck out…

I don’t know how I would even feel…

if i walked into my home and saw or someone had to break the news to me…

That the partner that I prayed for…

…was dead because he decided to delete himself.
i’m a very strong and resilient person but i can’t even imagine how that would fuck me up.
i would be left with so many thoughts and questions…