i legit cried this morning.
i was so embarrassed.
ugh.

woke up early,
had a good gym session,
and took a long walk to get a haircut.
got the message as i was coming home…

here is the thing i need everyone to understand:

just because the intrusive thoughts tell you to say,
doesn’t mean its the right thing to say.

i think many jackals are stupid because they are saying/fonting offensive shit,
but so self absorbed they think they won’t get repercussions for it.

its a real mental illness to say hurtful things about others out loud,
but being so confident that you won’t get in trouble for it.

do these jackals realize outside their bubble of idiots,
there are other people that will get them right up on outta here?
jaden ivey,
a baller-jackal who used to play for the chicago bulls,
forgot he was a public figure and said this about the LGBTQ community…

karen from “mean girls” did that.
i fully believed her crazy.

i’ve been wanting to watch the housemaid since it came out.
i got invited to the screening last november,
but i couldn’t make it due to reasons beyond my control.
i was devastated i couldn’t attend that day,
but i wasn’t supposed to see it until now.

well,
last night.

as i was watching it,
two things crossed my mind.
one:

Brandon Sklenar is fine AF.

i was fully distracted by the smile,
the biceps,
the tank tops,
and how i’d let that 6’2 white wolf palm my cheeks like a basketball.

but then there was the second thought…

this is the one thing they don’t warn you about with a puppy.

it was saturday night,
around 9pm or later,
and i stepped out right quick for to talk privately on the phone.
i was probably out in the hallway for an hour or so.
i come back in and the puppy to’ my laptop charger to shreds.
^ that was the outcome above.
when i font you…

i believe in visualization in manifesting heavy.
meaning,
you should always visualize the life that you desire.
like,
you gotta visualize it that you can feel it.
that also includes the menz we desire as well.
for me,
it’s not so much saying it and affirming 24/7:

seeing it
imagining it
moving on from it

why do you think people’s past tweets before success became a reality?
this was ariana in 2011:

high-key: “7 rings” is a peak manifestation song.

i truly believe they “set it and forget it“.
it’s not crossing the line of obsession,
but dancing around at the line of delulu.
i’ve been wondering tho:

what if you used AI to create a version of yourself where you are living your best life?

a Foxholer sent me a IG of an insta-gay AI couple,
@jaydenandsean:

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this vision came from someone i’m sure wanting “this“.
acting(?) vixen,
skai jackson,
has been making AI creations of herself,
her fantasy manz,
and the life she desires on snapchat…

this movie was a trip.
Foxhole,
watch it now on HULU.
NOW.

we have to be careful what we wish for.
i’ve learned that many times tbh.
i’ve done it with wolves,
people,
and tbh,
transitioning to this place i’m staying at now.

it isn’t always what it’s cracked up to be.
even though it drains TF outta you,
it either isn’t meant for you or meant to challenge you for better.

the pay off is you gain skills that the “easy mode” path didn’t.
i felt that way watching the 2023 movie,
“what you wish for“…