this whole culture of:

“we hooked up and now i blocked you on grindr/jack’d/sniffies/whatever else”…

…Foxhole,
i keep fonting that this current hook up culture is for the morons.
i see why so many of us are single and the straights of gen z are sexless.
we claim we want to be in relationships but we meet potentials but fuck first; ask questions later.
so because we didn’t communicate what we actually wanted,
we default to the block on where we met em.
not even because it was scary or weird either.
just someone who found us attractive and wanted to know more after.
yup!
that’ll teach em!

like,
really think about it:

we are blocking people after one hook up,
even if the connection went really well.
are we stupid?

i saw a post on reddit and felt empathy over the situation.
it went like this…

i hate when people who don’t want kids are continuously asked why they don’t want kids,
like certain childless celebs or people who get continuously asked by their parents or relatives.

BECAUSE THEY MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO HAVE THEM OR DON’T WANT THEM.

not everyone’s desire is to be a parent.
better yet,
some people can’t have kids because their bawdies won’t allow them to.
that can be very insulting and nasty especially from parents.

“when you gonna get me some grand babies?”,
like,
you weren’t even a good parent to me so why would i leave my child with you,
ya insufferable bitch.

Foxhole,
don’t go sayin’ that to your mother cause she may slap you.
i was thinking to myself yesterday:

“at no point in my life have i ever wanted to be a dad.”

i have never felt the urgency for fatherhood.
i see cute kids all the time,
and many of my friends have adorable kids but…

is this an example of what the people say is “queer baiting”?

when a acting wolf does/says a bunch of sus shit during movie press time,
especially when the movie has them as a “gay”,
but as soon as promo is over:

“I AIN’T GAY!
SEE!
LOOK AT MY PRETTY LADY!”
SEE!
AIN’T SHE PRETTY!”

someone ends up pregnant because that solidifies the straightness.

alexander skarsgård saw that after “pillion“,
the gays were getting too rabid for his swedish meats.
he put said this once we watched “pillion”…

even in this picture,
he looks like the odd color out.

one thing i am very versed in is messy work people.
i’ve had the work folks who smile in your face but snitch when your back is turned.
the ones whose only job is to climb up the ladder and if you can’t help with that:

for me tho,
it was always idiot bosses.
i have a real issue with idiots in leadership who are absolute morons,
especially when it comes to leading me.

sidebar: you know what i hate?
when you interview with your potential boss,
it ain’t even a week into working and they pull the mask off to reveal being born in hell.
UGH!

karamo brown,
talk show host and 4/5 of “queer eye”,
was like:

“i don’t fuck with 4 other bitches and i’m off this press tour starting now.”

only thing is,
he did it right before they had to go on air of “cbs mornings”…

from the time i was young,
i was always moving from one place to another.
something would happen just when i thought we found a home.
we would stay with someone until we found our “temporary” home again.
i font temporary because we’d be there for a few years.

until…

when we finally found a forever home,
when i finally felt safe,
my mother died three years into it.
those three years were peaceful and that home was wonderful.
that’s why that “jlo” album takes me back there.
it came out around a time when we felt like we touched solid ground.

until…

so i worked my ass off until i could get my forever home.
a home i stayed in for over fifteen years because it felt like safety.
i’ve lost that and like the familiar from when i was young
i’m a guest in someone’s space.
adjusting to unsaid rules; learning new rhythms and moods.
honestly…

i was OD waiting for pillion to be released.
it stars alexander johan hjalmar skarsgård and harry melling.
we fonted about it ( x here ).
here i thought i’d have to wait until it was in the movies.

…and then i saw HD GIFS of scenes from the movie.
my favorite.

i read the book,
“box hill” by adam mars-jones,
and ended up hating that experience.
so when i watched the movie from the comfort of the temporary home,
i instantly noticed the differences.
i’ll try my best not to font too much spoilers…