again: 17 dollars.

yesterday,
so i was told to be out of this apartment by july 1st.
i’m at my new job,
trying to focus on what i was doing,
but i’m getting the craziest texts in real time.

all over 17 dollars.

i had to send people the screenshots as they were happening.
when i’m not in here anymore,
i’ll post them with more details on the entire situation.
imagine staying with someone…

i think a lot of people lost their spark around 2020.

for me,
it started the first week of 2020.
getting let go from my last job the way i did,
along with the whole “ww3” situation…

i took this screenshot today of my bank account today.
i paid some bills,
the person i stay with hit me with hidden surcharges (which fuckin’ annoys me tbh)…

…and i was left with 1.00.
i was annoyed at first but then i felt a wave of “fuck it“.
i didn’t font this entry for sympathy or for shock value,
but for honesty.
this is the part many people don’t show us…

one of my wolf friends,
who happens to be white,
is fully convinced ^this vixen was allegedly murdered by her fiancé.
her white fiancé,
btw.

one thing is that every year,
we got some mysterious murder mystery to solve.
it’s like a season in a TV “whodunit” come to life.

his and hers on “netflix”
imperfect women on “apple tv”
every season of desperate housewives on “whatever streaming service”

it ends up going nowhere but the alleged villain gets so shamed,
they are never seen again.

this is NOT like the 60s,
70s,
80s,
and 90s to do crime because the rihanna’s 20s social media will shame yo ass.

anyhoo,
this alleged “maybe” murder mystery belongs to ashly robinson aka ashlee jenae.
ashlee got engaged while on a birthday trip to tanzania with joe mccann…

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…but in a weird twist,
she allegedly decided to hang herself while on said vacation.
this is the part that gives me sus via “people“…

i saw ^that online that felt like my brain on paper.
i’d like to add on:

The Foxhole.
being social.
rihanna’s social media presence.
the person i stay with.
the person i stay with.
THE PERSON I STAY WITH.
my own space.
my own space.
MY OWN SPACE.

…and i’m sure there are more in the reserves.
everything in my head is talking at once,
and it made me realize something…

getting on me for something and then turning around and doing the exact same thing?

that is one of my biggest pet peeves when to comes to anyone.
where i’m staying currently has been a complete mind fuck.
i had to wonder of i’m in a jordan peele or A24 production and didn’t realize it.
it’s one thing after the next,
to the point where i’ve started to wonder…

is this actually more mentally and emotionally taxing than what i left in new yawk?

the latest was what really made me back TF up…