i used to think having a platform was just about sharing your voice,
building a little digital tribe,
and maybe posting a few thirst traps to ride some dick.
here’s what no one really tells or fonts you:
once you start getting noticed,
you also become something else.

A moving target.

people love the fairy tale parts of being a public figure.
the engagement,
the admiration,
and the “omg i love your content!” comments.
there’s a shadow side that doesn’t get posted on the highlight reel.
let’s font what i’ve learned about it…

because whew...

I believe everyone should work at least one year in a customer service position.
Retail or working in a restaurant.

one of my first jobs was working in a fast food restaurant.
HATED IT.
HATED IT.
HATED IT.
it taught me very quickly that i don’t “do” food service.
my next job,
and many jobs after that,
was working retail.
i have done retail in many popular and high end stores.
i know what “working a black friday” means and the ping of terror it gives me.
retail is where i learned…

I can smell this picture.

it’s no secret that males with money pay for companionship.
they skip to the front of the line and head straight into VIP.
there are some who use their money to be predatory,
but there are others who are genuinely looking to purchase connections.
i’ve heard stories of rich males who pay for more than sex.
they actually drop dollars for intimacy.
they’ll hire an escort to have dinner and talk.
no sex on the menu.
they are lonely,
can’t trust everyone,
and it’s easier to purchase loyalty.
i know what you’re thinking.

Well,
shit,
I’m available.

…but that is the thing about males who are in a higher tax bracket.
THEY pick who they’ll drop dollars on.
sometimes they pick good and other times…
well,
everyone meet datari austin.

he makes so much bank that…

I don’t know if I was dreaming or what,
but I think I watched a documentary that a Foxholer suggested to me about black dandies.
For the life of me,
I cannot remember the name but it was about African dandies who live in a poor town or something.

anyhoo,
i really enjoyed many of the looks at the met gala this year.
(some of) the fashions gave drama and decadence.
you can tell who did their homework.
the theme this year was about black dandyism and had a 98% black committee.
black dandyism was used as a political statement.
learning pharrell had lisa from BLACKPINK wear rosa parks on her crotch:

BLACKPINK’s Lisa’s Met Gala Outfit Faces Backlash Over Underwear Featuring Rosa Parks https://t.co/llTtSptLbD #MetGala #LisaXMetGala2025 #Lisa pic.twitter.com/lH6FbmQTQC

— ktotheworld (@ktotheworld11) May 6, 2025

that was not the tribute he thought it was.
it was tone deaf at best; performance art at worst.
i still don’t know what the hell he had sabrina carpenter wearing:

it giving ringmaster at the circus.
i don’t even want to get into that symbolism with a white vixen.
tiktok had thoughts and i watched a video that put things into perspective…

do we still know how to be mysterious in a forest that rewards oversharing?
rhyheim shabazz carries himself differently.
not just as a black adult content creating hybrid,
but one who knows his worth without having to explain it.
now i’ll admit:
i don’t exactly subscribe to his work but i see it,
and more importantly,
i see him.
i came across this tweet and it said:

and i thought,
damn…

do you know your worth?
you could have 1 dollar in your account but demand to be treated a certain way.
for many of us,
we forget our worth and allow ourselves to be treated any kind of way.
we think we need to “be a certain way” in order to get what we want.

People who know they worth don’t keep the peace.
They know to shake shit up until everyone gets it right.

when i saw usher calling for the doorman to hold the door for him,
i thought to myself that this was just usher being extra.

“he already had the door open so why did he need to call the doorman over.”
keyword: the doorman.
in a group chat i’m in,
i posted the video and karaoke had this to font…