many people have suggested i move to cali.
personally,
i’m not ready for the west coast yet.
i haven’t even visited so i don’t know if i’ll even like it.

Not only that,
I heard black males over there don’t like anything that isn’t exotical black,
white,
or other.

someone i’m familiar with moved to cali from new yawk.
they were complaining about feeling alone since getting out there.
this is what they fonted…

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the NFL baller wolf was top-tier when it came to boldness.
he let me know he was interested AND had the best conversations.
a day didn’t go by that i wasn’t conversing with him.
he never denied he was a wolf looking for a fox.
even if he bottomed in a past life,
he knew what i was looking for and acted accordingly.
he looked hella good that even i was intimidated.

lately,
i feel like all the males i been meeting have been foxes.
they act so bold in trying to get my attention and then:

on this outlet,
i show my emotions a lot more heavily than i do in real life.
i had to wonder…

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sometimes,
we learn quickly that there are others in worst positions than us.
our problems are molehills compared to the mountains of many others.
i asked my therapist to try out group therapy last week.
i was very excited about taking my therapy journey to the next step,
but it ended up draining me for a few days…

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a few years ago,
and “name annoying ass job here“,
i was frustrated with the current surroundings.
the job was stressful and i was at my wits end.
a white vixen that i was cool with would always come to my desk to chat.
she was trying to start a fan page over her primal lust for sebastian stan.

i wonder if she smashed him yet.
she was obsessed.
at this point,
i never told her about the foxhole but i mentioned i had a website.
she was unsure about how to get sponsors for her endeavors.
i started to vent about how nervous i was to pursue them for mine.
she said something that made me realize how differently we saw things…

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*there have been so many discussions about ^this hard reveal.
i’m gonna try to cover the good ones because every day,
it’s something new.

the other day,
i was having a chat with a friend about how aggressive white folks can be.
when white folks want something or someone,
whether they’re gay or straight,
they’ll go after it without a care in the world.
the following video is what led to the discussion.
it’s a white vixen in a gym that was relentless in trying to get some bbc…

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i woke up today with the idea of being productive but instead,
i’ve been filled with anxiety.
the day when i should have drank tea instead of coffee.
we are living in a real-life dune atm.
i’m legit waiting for the monsters to show up tbh.
canada had some destructive wildfires and all the smoke came to us.
how can you not feel anxiety about seeing this…

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