you need some brain brian food in between all this meat i’m giving you.

well i have too.
don’t judge me.
i miss him.
i mean,
really miss him.
bad.
he just left me and never even said bye.
bastard.
see i don’t like that.
that bothers me.
i hate when they just pack their shit up,
leave,
and don’t even have the decency of writing you a goodbye letter.
i thought you loved-ed me?!?!?
so now i’m alone and having to stalk him wherever he goes.
i see he is having a grand ol time since he left me.
letting these ungrateful  hoes act all smug while they show off what he bought them.
ugh.
i hate hoes.
i use to be his hoe.
a top dolla one too.
what happened?
you know what it feels like to be avoided?
not good.
i try to hold on to the hope that me and benji,
the nick name i gave him,
will be together again one day.
“when” is million dollar question.
well i hope by that time,
my eye will be on mr. wilson.
“woodrow” is what they call him.
you now i like ’em big time.
benji can only handle but so much.
does that sound crazy?…

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it feels good to vent.
just let all the word vomit out on the table.
it’s even better when you’re able to vent to complete strangers.
people who don’t know you,
won’t judge you,
and will just listen to what you have to say.
sort of like what i do on this blog when needed.
so my phone has been off since yesterday…

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i have come to the conclusion that my faith is not as strong as it should.
*gasp*
i know!
i’ll have issues,
claim i trust god to handle them,
but still worry about them when nothing is happening.
not my smartest idea.
well after my fast,
on some random thought bubble shit,
i remembered something beyonce said couple years ago…
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“cum fuck me feels with the cross on them”.
i guess anything to feel righteous while on your knees.
so last night,
i woke up out my sleep at 430am.
when that happens,
its usually because i have a lot on my mind.
the first thing i do is get on my knees to pray.
well i wanted someone to pray with me.
since everyone i knew was probably sleep,
or just turning over,
i decided to try something a little different…
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we are all struggling with something.
everyone of us needs answers.
people try to ack like they so tough,
but get them alone or drunk,
and they’ll sing like canaries.
my struggle right now is having more faith.
in times like this,
they say my faith needs to be the size of a mustard seed.
well it seems to be the size of a particle of sand.
ever since i’ve been in this struggle,
ive been trying to find something to keep me with hope.
so my bible randomly fell off the shelf today.
scared the shit out of me.
when it hit the floor,
a card fell out of it.
when i looked,
i remember why i put it there…
Continue reading “The Prayer of Jabez” →