Ya’ll Respect The Shot, but Jamari Respects The Shooter.

the joker.
the riddler.
poison ivy.

i have always been a fan of superheroes.
but, I have always been a bigger fan of super villains.
something about them intrigued me.
the reasons for why they turned “bad” were often valid points.

joker wanted batman to smile.
poison ivy wanted people to treat the planet better.
venom kills people who commit any crimes.
magneto hated how people treated mutants.
cat woman wasn’t “bad”, she was more versatile.

but, I often wondered if these people were really “bad”,
or were they just hurt?
I started to wonder…

Is there such a thing as a genuinely “good guy“?

i can say i try to be a good person.
i have my moments, but i am more good than bad.
trust when i say when i was bad, i did “bad” very well…

…. until i started following the rules and trying to create good karma.

when i was younger, i was bad.
i was a rebellious son of a bitch who wanted to be noticed.
i would do things just to get my parent’s attention.
i think every nanny i had thought i was a demon spawn.
i hated being UN-noticed.
if the last thing didn’t top the fist,
the next would be bigger and better.

when they passed,
i thought this was some kind of karma on my part.
after a lot of bad mistakes,
(like a a small time drug dealer)
because my “villain” powers were only active when my parent’s were alive,
i started to get weak.
i needed them to be alive in order for them to work.
(that was a message on how these other spoiled brats in the world operate)

that is when i started becoming good.
people i thought were my friends treated me like shit.
they back stabbed me and made me feel bad about being a good person.
i would always be there for everyone when they needed a shoulder or even money,
but when i needed help,
i was completely alone.
partly, why this site was even born.

when it came to wolves,
i was good, but i also would show them i was evil.
they liked my punishment.
as much as they say,
love a fox to give them a challenge and a smart ass mouth.
in turn, they punish me in bed.
one of the reason why i always attracted someone else’s boyfriend.
i was usually the opposite.
but if they pissed me off enough, i would drop them without looking back.

i think the saying “nice guys finish last” rings true.
when last has being a “good guy” really worked out for me?
i was at my last job and that ended in a disaster.
coming in early, staying late, and following my boss around like a puppy.
but, in being good they also realized that they got rid of a good thing.
some of the mofos in the industry tried to play me.
making me do all the work and talking shit because i was deemed a threat.
but, i also realized a lot of them were going nowhere and needed my “good” to help their “bad”.

in society, we are bombarded with images of “bad” people.
shit, i feel 90% of ny is bad.
they are sought after and go on to run huge corporations.
they tend to always have the most money and quite frank, have more fun.
i started to wonder what is the real benefits of being good?
good enough to be used, walked over, and treated like shit?
or, good enough to rule the world in the future and leave a good reputation?
is playing the villain sometimes the best role for some people?
or, is it just a hurt person hurting people?

one thing anyone can ever tame is my mouth.
that alone keeps me playing the “bad guy” sometimes.

one of the reasons i love my smart mouthed celebs lol.

so, i had to ask about being “good”…

do the good foxes rarely make history?

2 thoughts on “Ya’ll Respect The Shot, but Jamari Respects The Shooter.

  1. I think there’s a difference between nice & a pushover. Know the game, but don’t stoop to that level to play it; just keep your eyes open & be observant to know when shyt is fishy…that’s how I see it.

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