the ambush at 430pm

ya know,
when i came into this meeting today,
i thought it was to touch base about upcoming tedious work nonsense.
not for nothing,
but our meetings are rather annoying,
tbh.
i hate them.
well it wasn’t a meeting about upcoming tedious work nonsense.
as soon as i sat down,
it was told to me that this was a meeting about “things brought to their attention about me“.

Who knew I was walking into an ambush this afternoon?

golly gee oh my…

you know what frustrated me about the whole thing?
the fact that with the two incidents presented to me,
one was a flat out lie and the other was a misunderstanding.
you thought i was gonna take it laying down,
but you was real shocked when i brought the fuckin’ heat.
i’ve been at some jobs where i got fucked hard before and had to take it.

No I actually fucked you.
Hard.
And I’m usually on the bottom.

i knew when there was long silences when i brought facts.
what insulted me was having my character be questioned.
the jackal who accused me has one of the worst attitudes on the job.
like,
his reputation proceeds itself.
yet tho,
he is suddenly trustworthy when he tried to slander me.
what’s crazy is that he is the one who did something to me!!!!
no one asked me my side of the story.
it was automatically assumed i was in the wrong.
so what i’m gathering is anyone can say anything about me and it’s “truth”.
that is the part that makes me open up my third eye and light my candles.
i don’t feel comfortable at all.
it’ll be:

“See!
We were right about him!
We knew it!”

there is a side of me that feels there is a hidden agenda underneath this meeting.
it made me realize why i’m still a temp going on 7 months.
it doesn’t matter if i’ve busted my ass,
gotten awards,
and get along with everyone (well almost) at the job.
i’ve gotten anxiety,
depression,
lost weight,
and my clothes don’t fit because of all i go through.
the last person in my position suffered the same until they bounced.
everyone always reminds me how sad and defeated they were.
go off tho!
the last department that hurt me like this ended up crumbling due to karma.
you’re fuckin with the right one.

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Author: jamari fox

the fox invited to the blogging table.

9 thoughts on “the ambush at 430pm

  1. Jamari woo sah, pay it. Don’t let that stress you out. These companies literally fuck with you just so you can quit so they can keep people pay rate low. The more new people come in and leave thats less they have to pay when raises come. They don’t care about the turnaround rate anymore. Ignore work politics. Find something to ignore them.

      1. Do it for your ancestors. They’d be so proud you weren’t giving up. Do it for everyone who feels that they can’t and can inspire and encourage them. You have the entire Foxhole in your corner.

        Show them why Black men dictate pop culture and why gay men are the most creative to walk the face of the Earth.

  2. What exactly are they accusing you of? (It sounds like they got too much free time to be making up stuff and not doing actual work. One job tried me like that but since I was the only one doing the actual job they kept it moving and obviously it was a bunch of jealousy and BS)

    1. ^they accused me of giving an attitude and going off on a white vp,
      which was a lie because that isn’t remotely in my character.

      i was also accused of speaking about something that was told to me by countless people.
      so i got thrown under the bus by them for being someone who was just there.
      they blamed and pointed fingers at me and honestly,
      it made me uncomfortable.

      1. White tears are strong so there is little you can do about the VP’s lies. I would immediately go into CYA mode with the other co workers. It’s sad but you can’t trust anyone.

  3. Sounds like the beginning of the end unfortunately my friend. If you’re still a temp and they are pulling stuff like this now then they most likely want you gone in this new year. The poster above is right. A revolving door of temps is the way to go to keep cost down. Sorry buddy. I’ve been there. It really sucks when someone assassinates your character with lies. From now on you’ll always be looked at with a side eye. It’s so fucked up.

  4. Jamari I have to be honest, you have countless similar work incidences where you are perpetually pointing the finger. Maybe, in 2020, its time to take some personal responsibility for your work place actions. You have what seems like the most tumultuous work place experiences (which is not the norm). maybe its time to bear some responsibility.

    1. ^my issues with jobs is usually management.

      the management at these jobs usually suck.
      the workplaces are amazing,
      my skills are unmatched,
      and i get along with my co-workers,
      but 98% of the managers are usually trash.
      i won’t play the victim,
      because i’m sure i could handle things better,
      but i wont take the full blame.

      i think i’m someone who needs to either have limited supervision or i need to work for myself.

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